i am needing a friend

hi as most of you know i lost my grandma this time last year. its one year tomorrow. it is hard on the family but i am having the hardest time of all. i miss her so much and i try not to cry when i am around family but it is hard, i am going to try to get my sister to go see my grandpa tomorrow to see how he is doing after he lost part of his foot. i just really wish i had somebody around that understands what i am going through. with the depression and the bereavement, and everything else that i have been through. i am just having a hard time right now.