I am my own worst enemy.

I stare myself down in the mirror I look deep down into my soul all I can see is darknessCircling like a black hole A lack of all human emotionsA lack of compassion for meI look now down at my razorsAnd ponder if its time to bleedI  bite my lip so fucking hard nowHoping it will end the urge The blood drips out of my mouth to the sink And deep down inside all that I can thinkIs oh what space I waste in this worldOh what a god damn mistake!!  Why was I born at all lordWhy cant I get over this ache Is it my reason for livingIs to sit here and wallow in painIs this a lack of giving that has me failing againWhat oh what can I do now? How can I stop these mistakesIf this bullshit does not end soonOh all the pills I will takeIf this pain will not end soon for meIll see you again in purgatory For I can not fight if for eternity I refuse to constantly beBeaten up by myself you see I am my own worst enemy.