I am living in a saunna
This is redicilous why arent I first priority? WHy is my hear two hundred degrees. I broke out because of the stess and heat and to make matters worse my mommyt now 72 who i complain about byt love with all my heart is having the bladder mesh surgery for the secoond time I need to go back to thearpy mnaybe. I am not doing well I need to go somewhere else. Its not fair I lived here since I was 189 again i am 44 i have never once been late on rent and I am the best tennent they have ever had im quiet i live on top o f atrash heap from a hoarder and im b having nightmares about fire again thats how I got sick. I am ready to move out soon and just leave my beloved family to live naywhere even thhe streets, I hate this place, its so hot i hate being heat im eitgher freezing nad have to wear heavy clothing or imn too hot help me someone call the board of helth I mwensioned it to the pharmaxist i hope he takes me serious he knows me best.
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Breathe, you are really having a bad morning.. it happens to the best of us. Maybe you need a new environment?
Rest assured when they did try to get a man in here they give me five minutes to tell me a man was coming in. FIVE MINUTES> I do not demaind anything if i go out there now and face the business world in my stressed state I will go the fuck off nad This is not like me to use bad launguage but The weather has been georgouse and I dont have anwywere top go with my mom being sick and my daddy taking care of her and susan my sis and power of is helping with my mom she suggested I go in and I was nice as honey pie and I hate this man. He has called my mopther about my private matters reguarding this man i've been seing and got me in serious trouble to where I had to hide his presence in my home even though I am allowed to have visitor they think he just wnats to live on me. or them since they pay my rent and food. What they don't know is my best friend sho has helped me the most even though I cant be in a real relationship with him unless he stops the whisky I hate the smell of booze im on meds yall know never to drink on benz which i had to go back on as a result not zanaz but just as bad. If I have todeal with one more issues I will frigging go to hamton where a comfortable nice cool bed is waiting for mem where I found comfort as the youngest tenn back when adults can live with children in a privatehispital I was the youngest, in everyplace I went. It gave me the will to get better fast to get out to get this place. I EARNED THIS I WANTED IT SINCE I WAS TEN AND NEEDED MY PRIVAQCY. Mom being the bneat freak and my father as a young with voilent outbursts my only refuge was the park or the indian steps a place where i caould sit for hours and read and just come home from program I was forced to go to untill I learned that I don't need it anymore. GOing backwards now is not my doing or fault I am doing everything I can to cope with this ungodly heat that just istnt fair and not to mension the fire hasaard that a hoarder hides boxes of dolls boxes of cheap dolls that I believe she dresses because some of her retarted crap has been in my laundry I mean what dgrown ass woman plays with dolls and talks to them i hear her digging tthrough her boxes at night and i bang on t he wall she will stop but she has a sign on my front windo that they think is funny that syas look out for pic pockets and loose women i will take a pic when I am able to get my shit together. I am so upset Why when I am their pbest tenet I asked my landlord for one favor during a bad volicilitous breakout on my eyeball that looked like he insitsited i go tpunched in hte face, follicilitous is a harsh disease that has been scientifically proven by tests run caused by a miquuito bite while praying under a full moon in the woods. Ok I had bug spray tons on i wa protected but this huge bug landed on my cheeck and once a year i was able to handle one or two breaking out before getting checked it only happens during my monthly and thise are easy to deal with. Its when I have over one thousand or five hundred thousand everwyehre you have skin called carbunkles which are painful itchy blisters and i want to die because i am on fire and heat and stress activites its i am just now getting readjusted to my paxil and i just have to wait the week or two or three it takes to get back in my system the doc told me he will raise my pazuil to three a day now and no other changes, i have babies to take care of my gerbles ane they are firghtng and i know they are suggering i got them an air purafiier to but isnt it rediclious to put the air conditiiner on in jersey in the winter im waisting their free heat and my parents money by making them pay because i hate the heat. I wish i could take off Id go to colorodaro and not worry abour gettubg arrested for smokuing weed for free. Its all I need for pain and Its so mcuh healthier than opiets you can swallow it in gummy bears i can quit smoking and breath get a nebulizer this state will not igve me because they say i caused my own emphazema. I hate this evergthing is my fault. they blamned me cause i warned the guy who tried to come in to fix the heat once wouldnt come back inside because i said i was contagious he was scared to come back in so they use that as an exascuse if you give nayone five minutes in a nasty voice by saying your grandfathe rmy landlord is coming into my messy home and a man to fix the head would nayone in the wolrd be happy about that? I BEG Of you After a shower and calm meditating I am going to sit in the office comfortable coloring untill it is fixed. I cannto fisk my going back in the hosital agan when i just celebrated 25 tears. I REFUST TO LIVE LIKE THIS I PAY MY RENT SIx fivty it started out five hundred and twenty five years latyer its a miserable shithole. i just need to vent