I am leaving
Sadly I lost the argument what I won is stricks on my back again. I stood on front of my parents about repeating another of uni for a course I don't want but they are still forcing me to repeat no matter what I came up with. On 10th of sep my dad booked me a ticket to return to Dublin for the uni paperwork and he is coming with me. Therefore I have very slim time to open a laptop security without him spying on me which makes me use this site less and less
All I want to say is I very much appreciated all of your concern and hugs those 5 days of using it was a life change for me that I never regret because I met the real world now and I made new friends and family unlike my imaginary ones. I will try my best when I get the chance to come back and update you and have more talks. But I really loved this place.
Right now repeating is my only option as if I had one from the start but my parents threatened that death will be my prize if I failed again and I know they are only scaring so I have to study hard the thing I hate the most. No choice. It's either this or death. They have something planned for me and I don't like sound of it. My dads plan was to take me far deep in Mexico desert ad leave there and come back to say to my family ie uncles, bros etc and make it look like I was kidnapped or ran away. At least I will be alive and free finally. I hope he sticks to this plan than dropping me in the middle of the sea to drown and say I had a swim but drowned due to muscle cramps. They sure know how to think for plan B
About my brothers I have 6 older than me that are living their lives happy but they don't know about my rape cuz my parents kept it inside them for six years cuz they believe i liked the sex. But the see the way my parents treat me. But my parents has an excus they say that I always fail school so must be punished for it. My brother are always confused. They don't know either to pity me or ignore me
Enough said I have only 9 days left in here hope I have the chance to say goodbye to all of u
All I want to say is I very much appreciated all of your concern and hugs those 5 days of using it was a life change for me that I never regret because I met the real world now and I made new friends and family unlike my imaginary ones. I will try my best when I get the chance to come back and update you and have more talks. But I really loved this place.
Right now repeating is my only option as if I had one from the start but my parents threatened that death will be my prize if I failed again and I know they are only scaring so I have to study hard the thing I hate the most. No choice. It's either this or death. They have something planned for me and I don't like sound of it. My dads plan was to take me far deep in Mexico desert ad leave there and come back to say to my family ie uncles, bros etc and make it look like I was kidnapped or ran away. At least I will be alive and free finally. I hope he sticks to this plan than dropping me in the middle of the sea to drown and say I had a swim but drowned due to muscle cramps. They sure know how to think for plan B
About my brothers I have 6 older than me that are living their lives happy but they don't know about my rape cuz my parents kept it inside them for six years cuz they believe i liked the sex. But the see the way my parents treat me. But my parents has an excus they say that I always fail school so must be punished for it. My brother are always confused. They don't know either to pity me or ignore me
Enough said I have only 9 days left in here hope I have the chance to say goodbye to all of u
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It\'s not good bye- it is talk to you soon. Maybe not as often, but that\'s alright. Stop by as much as you can, say hi, let us know how you are doing. We are your family as well. Remember, we are here for you. Remember we talked about you fomulating a plan? Don\'t forget that. Peace and blessings will always be sent your way.
Is there anyway you can talk to a brother in private. YOur parents are twisted in the mind. If you are the youngest why this push for you to be so perfect. You seem smart, seriously, if passing this is what you have to do eventhough it is not anything you like. I think you can memorize it. I did it for school. I know university is much harder but I think you can do just about anything if u can deal with the abuse you are going through. maybe this might make your parents let there guard down somehow. Do you think Amesity International could help you. There has to be away from your family. They sound very powerful. You may simply have to make a drastic choice to leave sometime in a way that would not cause them to come after you even if you where disinherited. You of course would make this decision. I so wish I could protect you. Tell your brothers what they are doing. Do you know if they were like this with your brothers also. They couldn\'t have changed so much. We will be here for you.
Remember what I said you do \"WHAT EVER IT TAKES TO LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT IT\" never settle for less, and we will talk again soon it is never good-bye.