I am learning to deal with real life
I am a dreamer when life gets hard I drift away. I escape. either by playing video games or playing video machines such as slot machines.
I am a person who got caught up in the fantasy world of gaming betting and gambling casinos
I attended my first gamblers anonymous last week. I was close to tears recalling how my life had been take over by gambling. Yes I have lost much money. But the worst thing that has happened to me is that I have lost my self respect and honor.
Its a damn shame. Gambling will never go away. People will always want to escape the pressures and difficulty of their lives and will always cling to the hope that just a little more money will make things a little easier. The money however is the fuel that feeds the addiction. At first you may win money and then go get something nice for you or someone you love. But then you go back to see how lucky you really are. Lets see if you can one up that pay out. whoops. i think i screwed up my money is gone. ^#%$@!! That left a bad taste in my mouth lets go back there and get that money back. Ok I'm even but It wont hurt to play on 50% of the winnings. that is money I didn't have last week anyway. well I am down to what i had when i got here damn. oh well i still have money to gamble with so cool.... im getting desperate i need a good bonus come on! what happened I had twice what I arrived with now nothing. This is the 75% outcome of a compulsive gambler like me. that means of the 60% of the time you actually are ahead in a casino 75% of those winnings don't go home with you. so you can safely say less than 10% of the time you go home with much more than you had. its a lose lose. you wont get those hours back either.
I am a person who got caught up in the fantasy world of gaming betting and gambling casinos
I attended my first gamblers anonymous last week. I was close to tears recalling how my life had been take over by gambling. Yes I have lost much money. But the worst thing that has happened to me is that I have lost my self respect and honor.
Its a damn shame. Gambling will never go away. People will always want to escape the pressures and difficulty of their lives and will always cling to the hope that just a little more money will make things a little easier. The money however is the fuel that feeds the addiction. At first you may win money and then go get something nice for you or someone you love. But then you go back to see how lucky you really are. Lets see if you can one up that pay out. whoops. i think i screwed up my money is gone. ^#%$@!! That left a bad taste in my mouth lets go back there and get that money back. Ok I'm even but It wont hurt to play on 50% of the winnings. that is money I didn't have last week anyway. well I am down to what i had when i got here damn. oh well i still have money to gamble with so cool.... im getting desperate i need a good bonus come on! what happened I had twice what I arrived with now nothing. This is the 75% outcome of a compulsive gambler like me. that means of the 60% of the time you actually are ahead in a casino 75% of those winnings don't go home with you. so you can safely say less than 10% of the time you go home with much more than you had. its a lose lose. you wont get those hours back either.
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