I am Innocent
As with Rosie, I continue to do my inner work; it has become a daily habit and I am grateful for that.
I continue to look at the ways I am projecting outward as a gift as to what I need to look at inward. i.e.: Judgments of others, wanting to control others, etc. It's as if the more I am willing to "sweep the cobwebs from my basement" the more appear. I see this as a good thing and I am willing to look at every cobweb that appears.
I continue to want my son to do the things I want him to do...be more energetic, more considerate, more, more, more, more, more. This kid works up to 50/60 hrs. a week, maintains his home (of course not to my expectations)...that too I am looking at inward, etc. I believe it's all a 'reflection' of the consciousness I hold about myself. HE IS NOT ME; BUT HE IS CERTAINLY SHOWING ME WHERE I NEED TO WORK ON ME.
As I have shared before, my work was my worth...work, work, work, work, work. I am projecting that onto my son. I am looking within and forgiving myself for doing this. When I do this, I am coming from a place of Innocence; I was an innocent child that learned this behavior and I am willing to work at surrendering it. That's the best I can do for now and I am willing to do it differently.
Life is good...life is showing me at a deep level how I need to continually keep forgiving myself. As I said, all my learned behaviors come from a place of Innocence...I no longer am willing to beat myself up; but own where I am and do the best I can to do it differently!
On a beautiful note...I AM GOING TO BE A GRAM-GRAM again!
xo
Vicki
I continue to look at the ways I am projecting outward as a gift as to what I need to look at inward. i.e.: Judgments of others, wanting to control others, etc. It's as if the more I am willing to "sweep the cobwebs from my basement" the more appear. I see this as a good thing and I am willing to look at every cobweb that appears.
I continue to want my son to do the things I want him to do...be more energetic, more considerate, more, more, more, more, more. This kid works up to 50/60 hrs. a week, maintains his home (of course not to my expectations)...that too I am looking at inward, etc. I believe it's all a 'reflection' of the consciousness I hold about myself. HE IS NOT ME; BUT HE IS CERTAINLY SHOWING ME WHERE I NEED TO WORK ON ME.
As I have shared before, my work was my worth...work, work, work, work, work. I am projecting that onto my son. I am looking within and forgiving myself for doing this. When I do this, I am coming from a place of Innocence; I was an innocent child that learned this behavior and I am willing to work at surrendering it. That's the best I can do for now and I am willing to do it differently.
Life is good...life is showing me at a deep level how I need to continually keep forgiving myself. As I said, all my learned behaviors come from a place of Innocence...I no longer am willing to beat myself up; but own where I am and do the best I can to do it differently!
On a beautiful note...I AM GOING TO BE A GRAM-GRAM again!
xo
Vicki
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What fantastic news!!!! Congratulations xxx
Thank you Rosie! Babies are a great reminder of the INNOCENCE I Am! xo
Yes! Congratulations! It does seem to help you focus on your best & highest feelings. Congrats to the parents too! Which ones, bg the way? RoRo\'s?
And congratulations on your inner insights and awareness. Change the inside and the outsides seem to change too; what a concept!
XOXOXO
RoRo is going to be a big brother! They will be 17 months apart. 12 years my daughter tried to get pregnant with no luck; Divine Timing. xo
Wonderful! I can\'t tell who\'s prouder yet, you or your daughter!
There are no accidents in the Universe. Good or bad, according to judgments if us humans, \"everything unfolds according to Divine Plan\" is what I am accepting these days. It\'s no accident we found each other on DS; I do believe that.
Me too!
I look at RoRo and see how innocent and non judgmental he is; nothing but pure love. He lives in the moment; doesn\'t worry; trusts someone will take care of him; allows his feelings, etc. All of this will change as he begins to take on his parents, teachers, societies ways/beliefs/labels, and he will forget this innocent beauty/love that he is. My job as his Grandmother is to remind him of WHO HE IS and love him unconditionally! That is a beautiful gift I get to experience!
yup...that\'s what grammas do and I bet you will do a wonderful job of it.