I am in need of support

I can't believe it's been since August 2007 since I've been on this site.  Kinda forgot about it, which is happening more and more with my memory.  This MS thing is finally getting to me mentally, hasn't gotten me too bad physically.  Was told yesterday that I may be loosing my job due to job performance or lack of it.  Don't know what I'm gonna do, finances suck too.  Been having not so good thoughts of what I could do.  Worring about Mom too, she will be 89 in June and is getting a pace maker inserted on June 6th.   Just thought it might help just to write this down.  I'm always telling people that things happen for a reason, guess I need to listen to myself.