I Am In A Down Cycle

Tuesday, August 19, 2008 – 4:30 P.M. A lot of things have been flittering around my mind, so I have not written much here. My mood has dropped down and I feel that I am in one of those cycles where little is going right.   When I saw my psychologist last week, we discussed how I sometimes pretend to be in a positive mood when I’m really not. She said I should be honest about how I feel, and if others don’t like it, then that is their problem.   I have been in an extremely bad mood ever since talking with my sister yesterday. She said my niece (Kathy) had sold her house and was considering moving closer to her mom. The house Kathy just sold was easy for me to enter because there was an entrance from the carport, which did not have any steps. While I want Kathy to be happy, I would also like her to live in a place that is easily accessible to me. I am not going to say anything to her about this. I feel it is not any of my business. Today I went to the physical therapy clinic so that I could have more pool therapy. As my luck would have it, the hydraulic lift that gets me into the pool, was not working. It was a disappointment, and I felt like screaming.   My physical therapist is looking to the day when I will no longer be going to the clinic. She wants me to continue getting pool therapy somewhere in Denver, where I can also receive skilled care once, or twice a week. I have a pamphlet from Easter Seals, which tells about their pool activities, and the different fees charged. It is so complicated that I told her I would need her to help me figure out everything. If I am unable to use the pool at Easter Seals, I do not have any idea of what I can do.   This has been a frustrating day, and I almost to the point where I feel as though I am about to boil over with anger. I am seeing my psychologist tomorrow, so I am hopeful that she can help me out.   Quotes for Success: “Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.”   Herman Cain