I am Depressed.

I am a man suffering from Depression. I am a Christian and it has been a struggle for me. I have tried everything from medication to prayer. My Depression is deep; It stems from emotional wounds from the past that its hard for me to shake off including recent life experiences. When I went to a friend's party on this past weekend, I realized that my friendship with him is over. While at the party, I had felt alone and isolated. I couldn't relate to his friends at all. They are professions and working while I am unemployed and not a lot of friends. 

For the past 13 years, my circle of friends has dwindled. I have felt isolated and alone, even when I became a father. My friend isn't a father and has issues with his parents and brother. I had no one to talk to and feel very alone. Earlier today, I teared up and cried while I was at church during noonday prayer and a tear is coming down my cheek while typing this entry. I have a supportive sister and brother. My brother is caught up in himself and my sister is going through her own personal challenges. Right now, I need a supportive hand to deal with my problem. My sister believes that I don't need therapy and she is wrong. I am not looking for drama, I need help. 

I don't mind praying, I am spiritually burned out! I am tired of being isolated and not having a good support system. I am still out of work and currently looking for a job. Right now, I am not having a good day. I just want this day to be done with. I want someone to talk to because I am tired of always going to my sister. She needs a break from me so that she can deal with her issues and me dumping my issues on her is selfish on my part. That happened 13 years ago when I broke up with my ex and was around people who didn't have my best interests at heart. 

I need help and don't know what to do! I am frustrated as hell! Now I just want to cry and go to bed. I am writing this entry while I am a computer room with people inside and trying not to cry. I am wiping away my tears. If anyone is listening, I need your help.