I am blessed.
With endo, there is so much bad. The pain, the loss of jobs, school time, money, doctors appointments, surgery, hormones, inferility, struggle to concieve, the 2 cents from everyone, the people with no sympathy, the doctors who have no idea, attempting to pay for everything, horrible news from doctors...the list goes on.
I like to think amongst all that somehow I am blessed.
Support from my parents,
Unconditional support from my partner,
Support from my close friends (even if they do give their 2 cents worth),
Support from my amazing friends on DS,
Love from all the people above.
Jason came in before...
"Bubby, how are you feeling?"
I shrugged, ok I suppose given the fact I have my period and Im in pain.
"I'm worried about you, I hope I look after you well enough" he looked so worried and sad.
I told him he does, more then I deserve, he looks after me so well.
I asked him why he is worried...
"Because you're so sick, Im worried I don't look after you well enough, I just want to be able to help you get better, I'm always here for you, I love you".
How prevcious is that? I gave him a kiss, told him I love him and that I am always here for him too, no matter what :)
He told me he wants to marry me oneday, he wants to be with me forever :)
I am so lucky..everyday he makes me smile and be thankful for everything in life.
I notice he is careful not to say "I want to marry you oneday and have children" - he knows how upset it makes me to think what if I can't. But thats not an issue untill it becomes one. But he is careful in his wording.
He's grown up so much lately..He's always been supportive and loving..but I can see him maturing..thinking more of our future..It's nice to have that support and love. I always tell him how thankful I am and how much I love him. I know we're young, but I have a wonderful feeling about this. Not many men at his age would stick by someone like this, they'd much rather be out partying having a blast etc.
Jason has said he could do all that, leave me and go onto that life...but he said "what use would all that be? I love you, I've found the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, there's no point in that lifestyle anymore unless I have you in it, unless everyday you're the one by my side, the one I come home to, my partner...so really, there's no option, it's always going to be you".
Yes, I am blessed.. through this disease..through all this I am blessed and I think I am much more thankful for it.
I like to think amongst all that somehow I am blessed.
Support from my parents,
Unconditional support from my partner,
Support from my close friends (even if they do give their 2 cents worth),
Support from my amazing friends on DS,
Love from all the people above.
Jason came in before...
"Bubby, how are you feeling?"
I shrugged, ok I suppose given the fact I have my period and Im in pain.
"I'm worried about you, I hope I look after you well enough" he looked so worried and sad.
I told him he does, more then I deserve, he looks after me so well.
I asked him why he is worried...
"Because you're so sick, Im worried I don't look after you well enough, I just want to be able to help you get better, I'm always here for you, I love you".
How prevcious is that? I gave him a kiss, told him I love him and that I am always here for him too, no matter what :)
He told me he wants to marry me oneday, he wants to be with me forever :)
I am so lucky..everyday he makes me smile and be thankful for everything in life.
I notice he is careful not to say "I want to marry you oneday and have children" - he knows how upset it makes me to think what if I can't. But thats not an issue untill it becomes one. But he is careful in his wording.
He's grown up so much lately..He's always been supportive and loving..but I can see him maturing..thinking more of our future..It's nice to have that support and love. I always tell him how thankful I am and how much I love him. I know we're young, but I have a wonderful feeling about this. Not many men at his age would stick by someone like this, they'd much rather be out partying having a blast etc.
Jason has said he could do all that, leave me and go onto that life...but he said "what use would all that be? I love you, I've found the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, there's no point in that lifestyle anymore unless I have you in it, unless everyday you're the one by my side, the one I come home to, my partner...so really, there's no option, it's always going to be you".
Yes, I am blessed.. through this disease..through all this I am blessed and I think I am much more thankful for it.
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