I am angry

I didn't realize until I was talking to my neighbor today how angry I am with my husband.  I even realized why.  And it suprised the hell out of me. 
It started with the "You can't talk to me that way' thing.  I was telling her about the argument and the thoughts that I had during that argument that I didn't want to face.
"No you can't talk to me that way!  Especially since it's your fault my emotions and memory are all messed up!  I have been a basket case since you did my meds wrong.  I can't think straight!  My emotions are out of control and you expect me to rational! It's all your damn fault!"
Whew, coulda knocked me over with a feather when I realized that all that went through my head while I was speaking calmly and trying to end an argument that shouldn't have started in the first place.
I will never tell him this.  I know it would hurt him.  He loves me.  I know he does.  Living with me and trying to take care of me is a lot of work.  Sometimes it's like he is taking care of a child instead of having and equal partner to help him in life. 
Sometimes we all make mistakes and sometimes we all need a break.
Wow I didnt know how angry I was about this.