I am an attention seeker..Hate me..

Well I finally lost it last night on the boards. Said I was leaving, swore etc etc etc. I guess, I have just had to much on my plate and got to involved with the threads yesterday and trying to save everyone. How can I save anyone when I am having a hard enough time saving myself? Way to much to handle. A *suicidal* girl put up some very horrific pics and I was trying to make it so not everyone would see them and be triggered. I sent her a page of hugs , begging her to take them down and many pms. She pretty much said if she was kicked off of here for this that she would *end It* and I would be responsible. Now I know I wouldnt be but it did cut me to the bone. Enuf said on that.. I love you guys and would miss you to much if I left. Besides what else could I do at work? LMAO I bought my son a motorcycle. My 19 year old. Its a 2007 Honda Shadow 600. Now I am just freaking out cause I am so afraid he will be killed on the damn thing and then I would never be able to live with myself. He just wanted it so bad and me coming from a shitty poor childhood gave into him. My older son has said the same thing. What if he gets hurt mom? Even though I gave him a Harley last year. So just pray for my son that he is careful and doesnt get hurt.. I dont know what I would do if something happened to my baby teddy bear...Or Ryan... the one who signs my paychecks. Speaking of Ryan, he finally gave Milly her diamond ring.. You should see this ring... almost $13000.00.. I think he needs to start paying his mom better if he has that much money just hanging around.. Hell thats about what I make a year.. lmao.. Ok a little more then that but damn.. I want a raise.... Wow they are engaged and now maybe I can get my own grandkids and not have to fuss so much over Als.. I spoil them rotten.. But I love it and them..  Ok I better get back to work or maybe Ryan will dock my pay... Cant have that.. I love you all and thanks for your support.. I dont know what I would do without you.. Love you more k? Y'Vonne