I AM A LOSER

I gambled today after not gambling for so long, I can't believe I did it, I know I can't take it back, but I made a huge mistake. There was no reason for it, I feel dirty and disgusted it for doing it, I am so stupid, I erased all my goals and set up new ones. I need to get my myself together, and get everything back in order again. I will wake up tomorrow and I will not look back. I will start back at day 1 again and I will not do this again, I am going to find a GA meeting around, I know I need more help, maybe talking to more people will do some good, I have everyone here, but I think need more. Well I am going to take a shower now and wash away the filth, and get ready for bed, I have work tomorrow anyhow and I am on my sixth day of working so I guess my mind is not here. Everyone have a GF weekend, I think I learned my lesson again. Hugs, Mindy