I am a fuck up
I am a total colossal fuck up. Iv been sober over a year now big fancy job and business and applying to college and all that shit and yet I am a fuck up. I promised sara I would arrange a credit card for her to use to apply to her universities and I failed.
she said "why do u make such big promises and offers" so I told her I would make sure she got the money on monday for sure and she said "yeah yeah i know what your for sure means so please"...
I need to get my shit together and I need to stop relying on people when the fuck will i realize that no one is going to help no knight in shinning armor is gonna come to my rescue there is no salvation for me why the fuck cant you get that through your thick fucking skull you dumb shit. whos gonna save you who? the junkie you're trying to get clean? or or his girlfriend who promised to led you her debit card? or is it gonna be the chick whos still hung up on her abusive drunkard ex boyfriend who knocked her up? or or is it gonna be your employer the guy you work for, the guy who would call you five times an hour when a project deadline was closing in and now doesnt even pick up his fucking phone? who shendy? who's gonna save you? no one the sooner you realize that the better it will be.
you need to get back on your feet, set up your own system you need to snap out of it and start working again you cant sit around loafing online and playing video games you cant rely on others when the fuck will you understand mate.
you need to get out of this funk stop being a pussy grow a pair of balls get over your break up and working again. we need that money shendy there is too much at stake here you cant fuck up not now. This is what we worked for its close you are so close to the finish line you cant give up now buddy boy you have to push on you have to push harder my friend you must.
I must call on the ancient spirits once more I am shendelzare silkwood the avatar of vengeance I will have no fear I will feel no pain
Take heart young one, the Earthmother is near. Ish-ne-alo por-ah
STORM EARTH AND FIRE HEED MY CALL!!!
she said "why do u make such big promises and offers" so I told her I would make sure she got the money on monday for sure and she said "yeah yeah i know what your for sure means so please"...
I need to get my shit together and I need to stop relying on people when the fuck will i realize that no one is going to help no knight in shinning armor is gonna come to my rescue there is no salvation for me why the fuck cant you get that through your thick fucking skull you dumb shit. whos gonna save you who? the junkie you're trying to get clean? or or his girlfriend who promised to led you her debit card? or is it gonna be the chick whos still hung up on her abusive drunkard ex boyfriend who knocked her up? or or is it gonna be your employer the guy you work for, the guy who would call you five times an hour when a project deadline was closing in and now doesnt even pick up his fucking phone? who shendy? who's gonna save you? no one the sooner you realize that the better it will be.
you need to get back on your feet, set up your own system you need to snap out of it and start working again you cant sit around loafing online and playing video games you cant rely on others when the fuck will you understand mate.
you need to get out of this funk stop being a pussy grow a pair of balls get over your break up and working again. we need that money shendy there is too much at stake here you cant fuck up not now. This is what we worked for its close you are so close to the finish line you cant give up now buddy boy you have to push on you have to push harder my friend you must.
I must call on the ancient spirits once more I am shendelzare silkwood the avatar of vengeance I will have no fear I will feel no pain
Take heart young one, the Earthmother is near. Ish-ne-alo por-ah
STORM EARTH AND FIRE HEED MY CALL!!!
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i still havent gotten myself to shower today or eat. its been a few days. can you send some snap out of its my way