Hypomanic
I'm a bit hypomanic today. I woke up at 7:30 am after about 8 hours of sleep (compared to my usual 12) and I've been feeling energetic all day. I haven't been able to nap or rest at all. I haven't felt the need for it, but I tried anyway. I don't want this to last too long.. Luckily I see a psych tomorrow, so if I'm still feeling this way I can get help. Geo didn't sleep well either... he got 3 hours of sleep last night and he's napping now. He hasn't been able to sleep without klonopin either. I just put a sleep klonopin with the rest of my night meds so I can fall asleep on time. I don't have to be up at a specific time tomorrow so that's not a problem. I'm supposed to see the doctor around 2. I should be up well before then. I'm just worried I'm in a mixed phase since I was down a couple of days ago. We can only see where it's going to go from here. My stomach is upset again... I had a roast beef sandwich from Subway and a Starbucks iced mocha. I guess it didn't sit well with my stomach. I didn't eat lunch again because my stomach was upset. Dinner was chicken with mac and cheese. I keep on wanting to lie down, but I know I'm not going to sleep. I'm just going to lie there in the dark with my mind racing and moving my feet to get rid of some of the excess energy. I can't even drink water because my stomach is so upset I want to vomit. Gatorade is even worse. The taste of Gatorade makes my stomach even more upset. I think I need to take some Alka Seltzer and see if that helps. It normally does. I have icky acid tasting burps.
Other than that, today was okay. I did have a good visit with my therapist who told me that my sister is not trying to manipulate me, but just airing her feelings. She said I should tell her that I understand and that I love her (which I did) but also mention that I went through the process of forgiving my stepbrother without cutting people that care about me out of my life. Not like there is really anyone that cares about me on that side of the family... all my stepmom cares about is if I'm going to church and my stepbrother doesn't care about me at all. the only one who might care is my little brother, but when I was going through all of the healing, he wasn't really in my life. We were disconnected for so long with my stepmom being the crazy religious person that she is. She means well, but she doesn't know I'm an atheist or else I wouldn't be able to see my little brother. I love and care about him, so I don't want him cut out of my life.
Food today was okay... I'm a little short on my calories, but I'm sure I will make that up tomorrow. We have the truck, so we need to go grocery shopping. We will probably pick up some food beforehand since it's bad to go shopping hungry. Oh well... I've been doing good, so it shouldn't be too bad.
Other than that, today was okay. I did have a good visit with my therapist who told me that my sister is not trying to manipulate me, but just airing her feelings. She said I should tell her that I understand and that I love her (which I did) but also mention that I went through the process of forgiving my stepbrother without cutting people that care about me out of my life. Not like there is really anyone that cares about me on that side of the family... all my stepmom cares about is if I'm going to church and my stepbrother doesn't care about me at all. the only one who might care is my little brother, but when I was going through all of the healing, he wasn't really in my life. We were disconnected for so long with my stepmom being the crazy religious person that she is. She means well, but she doesn't know I'm an atheist or else I wouldn't be able to see my little brother. I love and care about him, so I don't want him cut out of my life.
Food today was okay... I'm a little short on my calories, but I'm sure I will make that up tomorrow. We have the truck, so we need to go grocery shopping. We will probably pick up some food beforehand since it's bad to go shopping hungry. Oh well... I've been doing good, so it shouldn't be too bad.
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I\'m glad you got to the dr. I thought you were going on Fri. It\'s now middle of the night.
It\'s good that you want to keep in touch with your little brother.
I hope you and your sister get things in order. I know you love her.
Maybe stay away from coffee when your tummy is upset. I know it affects me.
Hope you feel better soon. :)