HYPOCRISY

AHH YES, GOOD OL' HYPOCRISY,  THE GREAT KRYPTONITE TO A WHOLE LOT OF CHRISTIANS.  YOU SAY YOU HATE SOMETHING, OR WOULD NEVER DO SOMETHING, AND THEN LATER IN LIFE, THERE YOU GO AND DO IT, AND EVERYONE IS POINTING THE FINGER AND LAUGHING AT YOU.  AS WE SEE IN THE NEWS THESE DAYS, CONSERVATIVE REPUBLICANS ARE THE GREATEST AT THIS.  AND LIBERALS ARE VERY VERY QUICK TO POINT THAT OUT TOO.    DAMN IT, I HAD THIS BIG OL' GREAT SPEECH IN MY HEAD WHEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNING, AND FORGOT MOST OF IT.  I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS,  SO I'LL RAMBLE A BIT TO SEE IF THE WORDS COME TO ME.     THE LAW IS THE GREATEST SNARE TO SHOW HYPOCRISY WHICH IS ONE OF THE MAJOR REASONS THAT I DON'T FUCK WITH THE LAW OR COULD GIVE TWO SQUIRTS OF PISS ABOUT THE LAW.  IT'S NOT MY FOCUS, IT NEVER HAS BEEN, AND NEVER WILL BE.  AS SOON AS SOMEONE SAYS, "YOU SHOULD" OR "SHOULDN'T," OR "YOU NEED TO" OR "YOU NEED TO STOP...,"  THAT'S THE QUICKEST WAY FOR ME TO SAY, "OH YEAH, WATCH ME AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS."  IF PEOPLE REALLY THINK ABOUT IT, JESUS WAS THE GREATEST OUTLET TO AVOID HYPOCRISY.  IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT IT, HE MADE EVERYTHING SO IT WOULD REALLY BE "ALL GOOD."  WHAT IS THE ROOT OF CHRISTIAN HYPOCRISY?  SIN, RIGHT.  SAYING YOU CAN'T DO THIS, AND THEN GO AND DO IT YOURSELF.  IT'S SUCH AN IMPOSSIBLE STANDARD THAT PEOPLE TRY TO LIVE BY, AND I JUST THINK TO MYSELF, IF JESUS LIVED A PERFECT LIFE AND DIED AS A SACRIFICE FOR ME, WHY SHOULD I TRY TO BE PERFECT INSTEAD OF JUST DOING MY VERY BEST TO LOVE AND BE WHO GOD MADE "ME" TO BE.  I DON'T CARE ABOUT SIN.  LET ME SAY THAT AGAIN, I DO NOT CARE ABOUT SIN.  I DO CARE ABOUT LOVE, AND I DO MY BEST TO DO SO, AND TO DO NO HARM TO OTHERS.  BUT I FAIL, AND I HAVE FAILED VERY BADLY IN MY LIFE, AND I KNOW OTHERS HAVE TOO, SO THAT'S WHY I SAY, "IT'S ALL GOOD."  YOU SEE, THERE IS A WORD THAT IS DESTROYING CHRISTIANITY, AND THAT IS JUDGEMENT.  HOW COULD ANYONE EVER PUT THEIR OWN IDEALS TO LIVE BY ON SOMEONE ELSE?  IT BAFFLES ME.  YOU DON'T LIKE CUSSING, THEN GOD DAMN IT, DON'T CUSS, BUT AS FOR THIS MOTHERFUCKA RIGHT HERE, I'M GONNA CUSS, DAMN IT. OOOOH, I'M TELLING, YOU SAID THE LORD'S NAME IN VAIN.  AND?  GOD SAID "THOU SHALT NOT."  OK, AND JESUS SAID, "IT IS FINISHED."  LOOK, I KNOW THIS IS A HARD CONCEPT, AND IT COULD ALL BE A MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE, LIKE I SAY LOVE, AND YOU SAY, WELL THAT MEANS DON'T CUSS, BECAUSE CUSSING IS NOT VERY LOVING.  OK, I GET IT.  THEN I COME BACK WITH DON'T JUDGE, AND YOU COME BACK WITH JUDGE A RIGHTEOUS JUDGMENT, AND WE JUST GO ROUND AND ROUND IN CIRCLES WHICH FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD, JUST LOOKS LIKE HATE...WHICH IS VERY ENTERTAINING, BUT JUST MAKES CHRISTIANS LOOK LIKE FOOLS.  I DON'T KNOW WHY THIS IS, BUT IT SEEMS TO BE TRUE MOST OF THE TIME.  CALL IT THE RULE OF REAPING WHAT YOU SOW.  BUT YOU TELL SOMEONE THAT YOU SHOULDN'T DO SOME UNRIGHTEOUS ACT, AND THEN LIKE CLOCK-WORK, YOU END UP DOING THAT VERY THING, FROM DON'T HAVE SEX, WITH YOU HOLDING YOUR 6 MONTH OLD BABY OUT OF WEDLOCK, TO DON'T COMMITT ADULTERY THEN YOU END UP FUCKING YOUR SECRETARY, OR WHAT EVER TO DON'T BE GAY, AND THEN YOU FUCK AROUND IN A AIRPORT BATHROOM STALL.  MOST OF THOSE CASES WERE FROM POLITICS ALONE.  WHICH ARE USUALLY THE MOST OBVIOUS, BECAUSE OF THE FLOOR THEY HAVE TO SPEAK OUT.  NOW LET ME JUST CONFESS THAT I AM A HYPOCRITE.  YOU CAN'T WRITE ABOUT HYPOCRISY WITHOUT BEING A HYPOCRITE.  MY RULE IS DON'T PHYSICALLY HURT ANOTHER PERSON, AND I HAVE OVER AND OVER AGAIN.  I HOPE TO NEVER AGAIN, BUT I CAN'T GUARENTEE IT.  IT'S IN MY NATURE THAT WHEN I FEEL FUCKED WITH, I'M GOING TO ATTACK, AND ATTACK WITH RECKLOUS ABANDON.  GOD HAS TO HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR, BECAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE THAT WHICH PEOPLE HATE, THEY THEMSELVES BECOME, SO YOU CAN'T TELL ME THAT IT IS NOT SOMEHOW BY DESIGN TO SHOW THAT HATE IS JUST RETARDED, AND THE LAW IS RETARDED AND EVERY RULE OUTSIDE OF JUST LOVING IS RETARDED.  I MEAN, AN ABORTION DOCTOR KILLS BABIES, SO AN EXTREMIST KILLS THE DOCTOR.  LIKE I SAID, RETARDED.  LOOK, I KNOW THIS WORLD IS FUCKED UP, AND PEOPLE ENJOY DOING STUPID SHIT THAT HAS CONSEQUENCES GREATER THAN WHAT THEY CAN HANDLE, BUT THAT'S THEIR BAD, AND GOD HAS PUT OUT A FAIR WARNING IN HIS WORD, AND THE PEOPLE THAT FOLLOW IT WILL HAVE A MUCH EASIER LIFE THAN THOSE THAT DON'T...IN ALL THEORY, ANYWAY.  FOCUS ON YOU AND YOURS.  RAISE YOUR CHILDREN THE BEST YOU CAN TO TEACH THEM GOD'S WAYS, AND THEN HOPE TO GOD, THAT SOME OF IT STUCK BECAUSE YOU SURE CAN'T CONTROL A GOD DAMN THING, ONLY GOD CAN.  LOOK, I KNOW I WENT OFF ON A TANGENT, AND THIS SHIT AIN'T COMING OUT RIGHT LIKE IT DID IN MY DREAM AT ALL, BUT THERE IS A POINT TO ALL THIS WHICH I REALLY CAN'T THINK OF AT THIS TIME.  I THINK I JUST WANT CHRISTIANS TO BE SEEN AS NORMAL AND NOT FLAMING MORONS.  NO ONE CAN LIVE BY ANYONES IDEALS LET ALONE ARE OWN, SO WHY PUT THOSE IDEALS ON ANYONE ELSE TO LIVE BY.  I WOULD THINK THAT WE ARE IN THE PERFECT SITUATION TO DO WHAT EVER THE FUCK WE WANT WITH NO CHANCE OF GOING TO HELL "BECAUSE" OF JESUS CHRIST, AND PEOPLE JUST LOOK AT ME LIKE I'M OFF MY FUCKING ROCKER, AND YOU KNOW WHAT, I PROBABLY AM, BUT I JUST THINK LIFE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER IF WE COULD FUCK ALL THESE RULES AND LAWS AND SHIT, AND JUST LOVE ONE ANOTHER.  YOU KNOW, KUM BY YA MY LORD, KUM BY YAH.    WELL, I REALLY FUCKED THIS JOUNAL UP, IT'S NOT EDUCATIONAL AT ALL, BUT IT'S JUST A BUNCH OF ROB VOMIT, SO I ENJOY IT, BUT IT PROBABLY MAKES THE REST OF YOU SICK AS FUCK....SO ENJOY.HEHE.