HYPOCRISY

WELL, MY FIRST JOURNAL ABOUT THIS SUCKED ASS, SO I'M GOING TO TRY THIS SHIT AGAIN, AND I CAN SEE, I'M NOT GETTING OFF TO A GREAT FUCKING START.HEHE  FOR BELIEVERS IN JESUS CHRIST, ALL THINGS ARE LAWFUL, BUT NOT ALL THINGS ARE PROFITABLE.  IN THE GOSPEL AS WE KNOW IT, IT BASICLY SAYS, WE CAN DO WHATEVER THE FUCK WE WANT BECAUSE OF BELIEVING IN CHRIST'S DEATH ON THE CROSS, BARRIEL, AND RESURRECTION.  NOW I KNOW THAT YOU PROBABLY DIDN'T READ THAT, BUT THAT'S WHAT I GATHERED FROM THE INCREDIBLE STORY OF THE GOSPEL OF CHRIST.  NOW THAT IS STRICTLY FROM A HEAVEN AND HELL PERSPECTIVE.  BELIEVING IN THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE OF JESUS CHRIST EQUALS HEAVEN, AND NOT BELIEVING IN HIM EQUALS HELL.  WHAT YOU DO FROM THERE, WILL PRETTY MUCH DICTATE HOW YOUR LIFE ON EARTH GOES, AND YOUR POSITIONING IN HEAVEN AS TO HOW CLOSE TO THE GLORY OF GOD YOU ARE.  WHICH ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ANYWAY, FOR HE KNOWS THE HEARTS OF HIS CHILDREN.  HONESTLY, I'M NOT HERE ON THIS EARTH TO GET CLOSE TO THE GLORY OF GOD IN HEAVEN.  I'M HERE WITH THE HEART OF NOT SEEING PEOPLE GO TO HELL.  NOW MOST CHRISTIANS ACT LIKE IT'S HOW YOU LOOK, OR HOW YOU ACT, OR HOW MUCH YOU SIN THAT DETERMINES IF SOMEONE GOES TO HELL OR NOT...AND QUITE FRANKLY, IT PISSES ME OFF TO NO END.  BECAUSE IT AIN'T ABOUT ANY OF THAT SHIT, BUT RATHER IF THEY BELIEVE IN JESUS CHRIST AS THEIR SAVIOR OR NOT.  YOU SEE, ONCE THAT HAPPENS, ALL THAT OTHER SHIT IS SECONDARY, AND IT MIGHT MEET YOUR PERSONAL APPROVAL, OR IT MIGHT NOT, NOT THAT IT REALLY FUCKING MATTERS ANYWAY, BECAUSE WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?  WHO THE FUCK AM I?  THE ANSWER IS THE SAME...NOBODY.  DON'T PLEASE ME OR ANYBODY ELSE BUT PLEASE GOD, AND YOU KNOW WHAT, YOU CAN DO THAT ANYWAY YOU WOULD LIKE TO, OR I SHOULD SAY, THE WAY HE DESIGNED YOU TO DO IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.  NOW I AM A GOOD FOR NOTHING LOW LIFE PIECE OF SHIT, "BUT" I THINK I AM PLEASING TO GOD, ANYWAY BECAUSE HE TRULY KNOWS MY HEART.  THAT I WOULD RATHER BE A SINNER WHO LOVES PEOPLE REGUARDLESS OF THEIR SIN, THAN A RIGHTEOUS, HOLIER THAN THOU, PERSON WHO HATES PEOPLE THAT DO SIN.  AND DON'T GIVE ME THIS SHIT ABOUT HATE THE SIN LOVE THE SINNER.  ONLY GOD IS ABLE TO TRULY PULL OFF THAT MIRACLE ACHIEVEMENT.  IF YOU HATE WHAT SOMEONE DOES, YOU ARE GOING TO HATE THEM, OR AT LEAST GIVE THEM THE FEELING THAT YOU DO HATE THEM.  PERIOD.     SO NOW, IF CHRIST DIED TO REMOVE ALL SINS FROM BELIEVERS, THEN I WOULD THINK THAT HYPOCRISY, DOESN'T NEED TO HAPPEN.  YOU DON'T NEED TO BE DISGUSTED WITH WHAT SOMEONE ELSE DOES...ESPECIALLY IF IT AIN'T GOT SHIT TO DO WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.  NOW OF COURSE, YOU CAN LOVINGLY COME TO A BROTHER OR SISTER, AND CONFRONT THEM WITH SOMETHING YOU NOTICE, BUT IT'S UP TO THEM WHETHER THEY CARE TO RECIEVE IT, OR THEIR THINKING WHO THE FUCK IS THIS ASSHOLE, I WISH THEY WOULD GO FLY A KITE, OR BETTER YET, GO FUCK THEMSELVES.  NOW IF YOU HAVE NEVER EVER REALLY THOUGHT THAT THEN WELL DONE, I'M PROUD OF YOU.....BUT MOST PEOPLE HAVE BELIEVE OR NOT, THEY JUST DON'T TELL YOU ABOUT IT.    GOD HAS A CLEVER LITTLE SYSTEM AS TO WHERE YOU WILL BECOME WHAT YOU HATE ANYWAY, SO REALLY, YOU ARE ONLY GOING TO END UP HATING YOURSELF.  SO DON'T PUT YOUR MORAL CODE ON SOMEONE ELSE.  EVEN IF IT COMES STRAIGHT FROM GOD'S LAW BECAUSE AS YOU CAN SEE, CHRIST COMPLETELY FULFILLED GOD'S LAW WHICH MEANS IT WAS FINISHED OR COMPLETED.  YOU CAN LIVE BY IT AS MUCH AS YOU WISH, AND YOU WILL BE BLESSED FOR YOUR OBEDIENCE, BUT PLEASE, BODY OF CHRIST, DON'T PUT YOUR PERSONAL LIFE DEMANDS ON ANYONE ELSE WHETHER SAVED OR NOT SAVED.  IT'S NOT GOING TO BRING YOU ANYTHING BUT HARDSHIP, AND MAY JUST TAKE YOU RIGHT THROUGH WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE AVOID.  YOU'RE PLAYING WITH THE FIRES OF HYPOCRISY, AND PAY BACK IS A BITCH AS THEY SAY BECAUSE IT ALWAYS COMES BACK AROUND TO BITE YOU IN THE ASS, AND YOU DO REAP WHAT YOU SOW, SO I WANT TO SOW LOVE WITH THE HOPE AND BELIEF THAT LOVE WILL RETURN TO ME.  NOT TO MENTION GRACE, AND MERCY, AND JOY, AND ALL THE GOODNESS OF GOD THAT HE REALLY WANTS US TO EXPERIENCE ANYWAY.  NOW YOU MAY NOT LIKE MY LIFE, AND PROBABLY DON'T, BUT MY LIFE IS DELIBERATELY CONSTRUCTED TO PROVE A POINT, AND THAT IS THAT THE BLOOD OF JESUS CAN TRULY COVER THE ABSOLUTELY WORST SINNER'S LIFE.  NOW, I DON'T EXPECT TO LIVE LONG(I HAVE LESS THAN 2 AND A HALF YEARS LEFT TO BE EXACT) FOR THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH, BUT PEOPLE LOVE TO LEAVE OUT THE SECOND HALF OF THAT VERSE WHICH IS "BUT" THE GIFT OF GOD IS ETERNAL LIFE.  IT IS A GIFT THAT NONE OF US DESERVE, AND THAT GOES DOUBLE FOR ME BECAUSE I KNOW I SURE AS FUCK DON'T DESERVE IT, BUT HE HAS LOVED ME ANYWAY, AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO THAT CAN KEEP ME FROM THE LOVE OF GOD.  NOW THAT'S GOSPEL 101.  AND THAT'S WHAT I TRY TO BE ALL ABOUT.  THROUGHOUT ALL MY CUSSING AND SHIT, THERE IS A MESSAGE OF LOVE, AND OF PEACE, AND OF GRACE, AND OF MERCY, AND OF SACRIFICE THAT CAME 2000 YEARS AGO FROM JESUS CHRIST HIMSELF.  I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW THAT LOVE IS THE WAY, AND JUDGING OTHER PEOPLES SINS WILL ONLY LEAVE YOU TO LOOK LIKE A HYPOCRITICAL FOOL....AND KIND OF LIKE I SAID BEFORE, I WOULD RATHER BE A TERRIBLE SINNER WHO JUST DOES HIS BEST TO LOVE PEOPLE, THAN SOMEONE WHO TELLS EVERYONE HOW MUCH OF A SINNER THEY ARE AND THEN END UP LOOKING LIKE A HYPROCRITICAL FOOL.  BECAUSE THAT MY FRIENDS JUST TRULY LOOKS RETARDED IN THE EYES OF THE OUTSIDE WORLD, AND THAT TRULY IS NO WAY TO REPRESENT CHRIST WHEN ALL THIS TIME, YOU THOUGHT IT WAS THE SIN WHEN REALLY, IT WAS ALWAYS THE LACK OF LOVE THAT YOU HAD FOR SINNERS WHICH INTURN, IS A LACK OF LOVE FOR GOD TOO.  THE TWO LAWS THAT I WOULD MUCH RATHER PUT ALL MY EFFORTS INTO FOLLOWING.  FUCK THE REST.  STICK WITH THE BEST.