HVP go away

Been divorced for 8 yrs and just found out last June that I have high risk HVP for 4 yrs and only dated one guy but relationship ended up over 2 yrs ago not knowing he already gave me HVP eventhough he infected me with high risk HVP. I still have a strong feelings for him... So sad that his no longer on my side.. Sorry just feel so sad and lonely due to this infection... I don't sleep around,  it just happened that I fall for someone who has HVP... I'm trying to be strong but not strong enough to tell family and friends about it...