Husband

I miss my husband daily. When he died I went crazy. I dated like nuts. I took lovers and drowned my sorrow in sex. Now I have stopped because I realized I was missing my best friend and meaningless sex was not the answer. I need to get over this and move on like my mom always says to. But I don't know how to get over it and move on. My friends and family have never been where I am in life. I was divorced in 2003. I found love again in 2006 and became a widow in 2013. Now I am being sued by old debt and need to file bankruptcy. I work 2 jobs to get by, because there was no insurance, 58 hours a week and have shifts that span all 7 days. I no longer get to go to church because I am at work. I don't get to volunteer anymore either. I am stressed all of the time and I miss having Louis here to hold me and tell me it will be OK. He was my rock and now he is gone. Oddly enough last year at this time I missed him more then before and after. I guess that Dec-Feb is just going to be hard for me. There aren't any adaquit groups in my tiny area and my church is small and doesn't have members with my issues. I am to tired to keep the happy face on any more. I logged on here for help. I am glad I joined.