Hurting for my Baby

 Hey My Baby Girl;God knows my heart and it is so heavy. I so love you and miss you. I woke up in the middle of the night and you were on my mind. I remember the way you said, "MOM". I wish so much to hear that word again. Just so many things run through my memory. That's all I have. Brittany needed pictures for school so I went through our big box of pictures. I have 100s maybe 1000s of you with family or friends. Pictures of when you were a baby, school days, outings, holidays, oh so many memories. I cried. Daddy and Ray helped me look through the pictures, tears rolled down their cheeks too. You had that million dollar smile in all of them. You were happy in each and everyone of the pictures. I pray that you were happy with me. I am so proud of you. YOU make me so happy. I am so pleased to see that your friends still think of you. Your friends are like gifts, they mean so much to me. The holidays are coming up and I really dread them. People don't realize what the season means. FAMILY. Life is so special and can be taken at any moment. Everything is rush rush. I asked Ray what He wanted for Christmas. He said a nice dinner would be just fine. He has a kind heart just like his Sister. You always went and stood in lines to get whatever he wanted. You helped spoil him and he loves you too. Daddy is doing good. You would be so proud. He has lost a lot of weight and still kinda weak, but you can see his progress daily. Thank God. I write to you but sometimes it doesn't get printed. So I will close for now. I LOVE YOU *MY ANGEL MANDI* Hugs and Kisses.   with lots of Love, Mom