Well we finally got the date for the CT scan & we got the date for the followup discussion appointment, Feb 5th & Feb 17th. But you know as good as this is, it absolutely made it feel like the monster is knocking at the door. You want this to take place yet you want to bury your head in the sand. I just don't know. I keep trying so very hard to keep the positive up front & the negative in it's proper place at the back but sometimes it feels like it's so mentally tiring you know. At least I do acknowledge that the Lord is sure helping me stay physically healthy (SO FAR). We will see how life goes fr here. At least I've got the few friends here on DS that read my entries here so it's almost like having a real shoulder to lean on.