Hubby is steps away from leaving.

Hubby is steps away from leaving me...and I think the only reason he hasn't done it yet is because he doesn't want to leave the job that we work at together. If he were to do it by himself he would need to take on much less work and accept less pay for it. He likes the amount that we are getting paid for doing our job, and he doesn't want to lose that big paycheck.once a month. I also know that he doesn't want to go back to the work he was doing when he first met me (some 8 or so years ago), but I know he has been toying around with the idea. The first hint that I had that he is steps away from leaving me is that he decided to go to an AA meeting (something he has been talking about doing since we first got together, but hasn't gotten around to until now), and although I applaud the idea that he is trying to better himself, may I carefully point out that he doesn't EVER drink?? So that leads me to think that he is doing it to meet people (women). Just announced it out of the blue...and off he went. This big change in the normal day to day interactions have made me think he is considering cheating on me...which he did 5 -5 1/2 years ago and I know he remembers how much that devastated me and our relationship. At first he tried to say it was just a friend...when I showed him the emails that I knew he sent and the emails I saw from her....i called him on it and then he finally fessed up (once he knew I had him backed into a corner and that only the truth would set him free). I recently (within the last year or so) asked him how he broke it off with the other woman...he said that he just didn't talk to her anymore. So naturally this sudden change in the norm...makes me wonder if he is contacting her again...or any other woen for that matter. I thought that we were all through with all of this stuff, but his sudden change in his actions has triggered all of these feelings. I still love him and I want to make things work...but I can't be the only one trying!!

He used to make note of when I was doing things to help our relationship but now he doesn't seem to notice or care!! It is my opinion that he is looking for someone that he has more in common with.