How things are up to this point

Right now I'm okay.  I'm really tired and will definitely be going to bed shortly after I vomit some words out. Anyway, it's a little after 5AM right now.  It's not that I can't sleep I was just up late talking on the phone with this guy I met online, then decided to go to the gym.  Now, I'm exhausted. His name's Mark (the guy I talked to).  We've been messaging each other back and forth and texting too and last night was our first time talking on the phone.  He seems really nice and we have a lot in common.  I'm hoping that we'll get to know each other more and hit it off well.  So far so good.  
Other than that I've been looking for another job, but with no luck so far. But, there is a potential job at the Goodwill down the street from my house.  I really hope I can get that job for several reasons.  One reason being that I won't have to shave (at least I doubt I would have to). Another reason is because the pay is decent and the hours are perfect for my school schedule.  Anything retail would be nice.  My last two jobs were doing document conversion/electronic filing, and I did quality control.  It was boring, but the people were nice.  Most of them..
I don't feel like me and Patrick are as close as we used to be.  He's one of my best friends, and it feels like he's only there when he needs or wants something now. We don't talk as often or hangout more than once a week at the most.  He's always at John's house.  Probably because he can smoke weed all he wants there and get it pretty much for free.  I've stopped smoking, and i think that's part of the reason he doesn't come around as often.  He told me once that he likes me better when I smoke.  It's kind of insulting in a way because it's like saying he doesn't like the "real" me.  I don't know anymore.  And the other day when we hung out it felt so awkward, because he gets really knit-picky and points out my flaws or anything I do or say that seems weird to him or something, he'll point it out and make a big deal out of it when it actuality it wasn't anything serious that I said or did.  It really gets on my nerves, and I am going to tell him that.  The next time he points something out like that I'm going to tell him how I feel about the way he does that.  Even Crystal, his former best friend who I still talk to and he doesn't, says that she feels like she's constantly walking on eggshells when she's around him.  That's how I feel too and I'm over it!!  I've let him control so much of my life since we've become friends.  We even started saving our money together to put towards a down payment on a house, and over $2,000 dollars of it was mine and his was about $500, but not too long ago he finally confessed to me that he spent all of that money after I talked to his mom and voiced my concerns that I was suspicious about it, and had a strong feeling that he either spent it or was spending it because of how he would react when I wanted to see receipts or something.  I don't know what to think of him anymore.  On one side, he's been there for me, like through my surgery and chemotherapy, and when I had problems at home with my mom, and a lot of other things. But, on the other side he uses me and talks down at me without even realizing it.  I don't even know what to do.  But, I know i can't take it for far too much longer..  
I'm going to call that psychiatric place and see if I can find a good therapist to talk to and hopefully get some good input from them.  I would want to talk to my nurse Wendy about it, because she listens well and gives good feedback, but she's my nurse and not a psychologist.  I'm gonna set an appointment up with a psychologist today.  I'll type up an update on how that goes after it happens.  But, for now I'm gonna get off here and get some sleep.  Take care everyone and I hope you're all doing well!