How much more bad news can my family take....

It's been a while since I've posted here, the craziness of the holidays, getting ready for the family to come and stay with me.... and here it's the New Year, where we all sat and thought about the past year and 1/2 and vowed that this one will be the year that will be great..... Sadly, my aunt went to the hospital for stomach pains and ended up being diagnosed with , istage 4 pancreatic cancer, already spread to liver, lungs and small intestine., therefore not a candidate for surgery... they will give her chemo, she will be lucky if she gets 6 months. She only has one daughter, and a 4 year old grandson. Our family is quite small, she is my father's only sister and his parents have already died. That's it, he said, My family will be gone, she is all that I have, I cried for him... he is finally getting his life on track after my mom, as I am too, it's been so hard, and I still have days that are so terrible thinking about my mom and all that she has missed, and all the things I wish I could talk to her about. and I worry for my father, because now this will consume him,as I find myself on the internet again, searching for something, anything to make it better. I don't know why we have this cloud following us right now. I don't get it. Nothing makes sense, all this pain, for what?  Just venting and looking for I am not surewhat....