How much have all my problems taken out of me really?
I have felt a little more upbeat the past few days (except for a bad toothache, but no biggie). I've tried to eat a little better and look to more positive things to help me through these tough times. Well, yesterday when I was feeling good, I took a picture of myself for my facebook profile picture. Then I was told by a couple of my closest friends that my picture looked bad... that I look like a balding cancer patient, weird-looking, etc.
That really hurts so I just changed my profile picture to a blank white box. Really makes me wonder how I am looked at in real life then? I know I've lost a lot of weight and lost some hair too, along with the sparkle I once had in my eyes, but I was feeling a little better about myself until this happened. Then I had a falling out with a different friend at about the same time and I don't even know what I did wrong? It all makes me feel very bad about myself and even more alone now.
My ex-wife destroyed my confidence and self-esteem. Now every time it seems I try to start gaining a little back, someone is there to push me right back down. Beyond frustrated. :(
That really hurts so I just changed my profile picture to a blank white box. Really makes me wonder how I am looked at in real life then? I know I've lost a lot of weight and lost some hair too, along with the sparkle I once had in my eyes, but I was feeling a little better about myself until this happened. Then I had a falling out with a different friend at about the same time and I don't even know what I did wrong? It all makes me feel very bad about myself and even more alone now.
My ex-wife destroyed my confidence and self-esteem. Now every time it seems I try to start gaining a little back, someone is there to push me right back down. Beyond frustrated. :(
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Your value is far more than your appearance my friend. I myself look like and emaciated, aging cancer patient! I know you as a very kind and encouraging person who has overcome a lot and who keeps pressing on in the face of some difficult times. Keep fighting and praying my friend and don\'t let anyone steal your joy. When you need someone to lift you up drop me a line!
I hope your day is going better. And, no, you do not look like an \"emaciated, cancer patient\" - thank God for that, right? Praying that you find some peace in life. I don\'t know if you are working or not, but as someone who is not, I find that I have lots of time to think, worry, et. I know finding a job would make a world of difference. I know at one time you were unemployed, so just wondering. Hope you are still enjoying the truck! ((HUGS)) Cindy