How long will it be?

Well, I realized last night that I haven't talked to Spank in 12 days, not the 5 that I was originally thinking.  It has been a week since the "confrontation" with JD.I'm starting to get a little sad about the entire thing.  Getting back to visualizing them going to bed together every night and having sex every night.  Her kissing his beautiful lips and him holding her in his arms. I should be hoping that they are in separate rooms and that they don't really communicate anymore.  That the sex is few and far between and that he is getting sick of her.  I really don't want to fool myself though.  Maybe the "honeymoon" phase will be over soon. Or does she have this special pull that keeps him excited and wanting more?  I want my Spanky back before it's too late for any of us.  We aren't getting any younger and I want to spend fun times with him too before I can't do it anymore.  I want to spend times with the kids before they get too old to want to do anything with us.  I want to enjoy life WITH them, not without.  Just feeling sad and lonely today.  I see my shrink tonight.  Hope things get better or I hear from him soon and we actually talk about what happened so I don't think that it's just a i'll call you when I feel like it thing.  I miss that dumb jerk.