How it feels
I sit in my garden, bursting with flowers. Vibrant pink, red, white, yellow, purple, orange, periwinkle, tangerine and every shade inbetween on a backdrop of a cornacopia of green hues over leaves. I try to be calmed by my months of hard work and for a moment I am distracted and at peace.
But the terrible nauseating ache on my left forehead intrudes into my serenity. Intense thirst draws me to drink from my ice cold glass of water. My eigth cup today and still I am not sated. I would like to take more Tylenol with Codeine and see if it would dull the pain, but I doubt that it would make much of a difference to the degree of hurt. It would take the pain from an 8 to a 7 and only for 2 hours, and from there, I would have to wait two more hours before I could take more medicine. Today, I fear I cannot take anymore. Today, I feel like vomitting for all the burning the codeine has done to my stomach.
My little dog barks and it is like someone has punched me in the head. That's not fair to have pain like that, where someone or something can remotely hurt you! I try not to clench my body against the pain so I take a deep breath and relax. For a breif moment it feels slightly better, but a few minutes later, I am in a rigid grip without intending to.
Oh god, but it hurts. I need to distract myself while it runs it's course but reading or watching TV is painful. Just as painful is closing my eyes and having to endure the sharp peircing pain that flares when I breath or move. How can one sleep when your head is in a twisting vice? Muscle relaxants. I am so sick of drugs. I've tried so many I can't even recite them anymore.
Nothing is working anymore and I must just endure the sickness and the pain. Hope fades and depression strengthens with the frequency of occurances making it all the harder to endure yet another day.
I am expert at surrendering.
But the terrible nauseating ache on my left forehead intrudes into my serenity. Intense thirst draws me to drink from my ice cold glass of water. My eigth cup today and still I am not sated. I would like to take more Tylenol with Codeine and see if it would dull the pain, but I doubt that it would make much of a difference to the degree of hurt. It would take the pain from an 8 to a 7 and only for 2 hours, and from there, I would have to wait two more hours before I could take more medicine. Today, I fear I cannot take anymore. Today, I feel like vomitting for all the burning the codeine has done to my stomach.
My little dog barks and it is like someone has punched me in the head. That's not fair to have pain like that, where someone or something can remotely hurt you! I try not to clench my body against the pain so I take a deep breath and relax. For a breif moment it feels slightly better, but a few minutes later, I am in a rigid grip without intending to.
Oh god, but it hurts. I need to distract myself while it runs it's course but reading or watching TV is painful. Just as painful is closing my eyes and having to endure the sharp peircing pain that flares when I breath or move. How can one sleep when your head is in a twisting vice? Muscle relaxants. I am so sick of drugs. I've tried so many I can't even recite them anymore.
Nothing is working anymore and I must just endure the sickness and the pain. Hope fades and depression strengthens with the frequency of occurances making it all the harder to endure yet another day.
I am expert at surrendering.
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When I am in great distress my relief comes (eventually) from reciting The Lords\' Prayer\" it has helped me countless times. It\'s worth repeating until you feel a sense of relief.I am truely sorry for what you are going thru. May Gods gentle/kind hand \"touch you \"now.\" vicky xxxooo
I am very sorry for the pain you are experiencing... it is certainly not fair that anyone should have to endure such torture. I am sending you lots of very gentle comforting hugs... along with positive thoughts and healing energy... and hope and faith that the specialist will be able to help you when you get to see him.
Wishing you all the best... take care... Gaye... xxx
PS... your garden sounds delightful... do you have some photos that you could share with us? xxx
codeine never worked for me, in fact i get headaches from codeine.
FIORNAL DID work. like a miracle drug and caffeine first thing in the morning which is what i still use and now fiornal just once a year or so. avoid red wine, aged cheese, msg, red meat...it took a year after i started getting these to really figure out how to handle it.
i heard they can be allergy related, i also almost get them when i rains, but i control it with more caffeine and advil or a fiornal, a friend of mine who gets them read recently that they may actually be small seizures so medication for epileptics may work, though so far caffeine, advil, dark glasses, heating pad to the head, warmth, rest, and last resort FIORNAL, does the trick. except for the first year, i have been mostly migraine-free for 25 years, i am migraine-prone and all that but the regiment works.