How I Miss you Kenny!!!
I flew up in the sky, trying to look so high, to see if I could see those beautiful blue eyes. I did see the blue sky which reminded me of you, but I didn't see you face, which I wanted to so much.
It didn't matter to me if I did not come back alive, that way I would be in Heaven and walk and talk with you. I can't believe it's only 4 months now, and mom still feels I am in the hospital holding your hand. I miss you more than you will ever know. The pain is so deep.
I look back on my life and think of many times that I should have died. Why didn't God let it be me, and let you fulfill you dreams. I am so sorry I could not fix you, you know that's what mom's do. And if God had given me the power, I would have changed places with you.
I love you dear son, so much, so strong. Someday when finally I get to come home, I will get to be with you. I am looking so forward to that day, to just see you again and hold you close to me and never ever have to let you go again. Until that time arrives, I guess I just keep hanging on, but I sure do miss you my first born Son.
Love you forever, Mom
It didn't matter to me if I did not come back alive, that way I would be in Heaven and walk and talk with you. I can't believe it's only 4 months now, and mom still feels I am in the hospital holding your hand. I miss you more than you will ever know. The pain is so deep.
I look back on my life and think of many times that I should have died. Why didn't God let it be me, and let you fulfill you dreams. I am so sorry I could not fix you, you know that's what mom's do. And if God had given me the power, I would have changed places with you.
I love you dear son, so much, so strong. Someday when finally I get to come home, I will get to be with you. I am looking so forward to that day, to just see you again and hold you close to me and never ever have to let you go again. Until that time arrives, I guess I just keep hanging on, but I sure do miss you my first born Son.
Love you forever, Mom
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I remember flying home from Fl a few years ago and in the plane kept looking for my son in the clouds. It felt like he was there...Hugs, Inga
did you get my poem the rainbow bridge. i wrote that out especially for you. to cheer you up about your zoey and son. please let me know if you got it. your journal was so nice hugs zzztop
The same experience happened to me in the clouds, when I took a trip to Puerto Rico last year.. I felt the same feelings, Ryan\'s soul/spirit was holding us up... Then I started to think everyone who is in heaven, their spirits were holding us up.. It feels good to think in those kinda ways.. It eases the pain.....xoxoxo, Kelly
I think that we each have felt that it would be okay if we died...but we know that our family and friends need us desperately...that they have already suffered too much. So...we work hard to hang onto our lives and work and search for a future. You will find a way to experience happiness...but your loss is still so recent. It takes so long friend...just keep trying everyday. Love and hugs...Karen
I have never seen my daughter\'s face in the clouds yet but I will keep looking. I have seen a double rainbow and I believe she had something to do with it being there for me to see. One time she came to me in a dream, but was it a dream, or did she really visit me? Felt so real. May you find comfort and peace. Truly your friend, Barb.
Yes, someday there will be a glorious and longed for reunion. I do not wish to hasten the coming of that day, but I do know that when it comes, I will be ready to see the Lord and my precious son......
hugs, Rebecca
Sandi, holding you in love and light. We have a long road ahead I know. I hope you can take heart from these lines
If ever there is tomorrow when we\'re not together -
There is something you must always remember -
You are braver than you believe,
Stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think,
- But the most important thing is, even if we\'re apart -
I\'ll always be with you!
(Christopher Robin to Winnie-the-Pooh)
Love and hugs,
Joan
I love being up in the coulds in an airplane...I feel so close to Greg then...I am the same, I can\'t wait to see him again when it is my turn to go but, like the guys says in Gladiator...\"Not yet, not yet...\" Keep holding on...we love you. Peace, Anne
We\'ve all felt that and it hurts. Wishing you comfort and peace. Hugs Cathy