How I Miss you Kenny!!!

I flew up in the sky, trying to look so high, to see if I could see those beautiful blue eyes.  I did see the blue sky which reminded me of you, but I didn't see you face, which I wanted to so much.
It didn't matter to me if I did not come back alive, that way I would be in Heaven and walk and talk with you.  I can't believe it's only 4 months now, and mom still feels I am in the hospital holding your hand.  I miss you more than you will ever know.  The pain is so deep.
I look back on my life and think of many times that I should have died.  Why didn't God let it be me, and let you fulfill you dreams.  I am so sorry I could not fix you, you  know that's what mom's do.  And if God had given me the power, I would have changed places with you.
I love you dear son, so much, so strong.  Someday when finally I get to come home, I will get to be with you.  I am looking so forward to that day, to just see you again and hold you close to me and never ever have to let you go again.  Until that time arrives, I guess I just keep hanging on, but I sure do miss you my first born Son.
Love you forever, Mom