How I'm feeling today

Today is like any other day I've had in the recent months.  I'm tired within an hour of getting out of bed.  My knees and back hurt.  I take my gabapentin and wait anxiously for it to kick in.  It's the only medication I have to take that will alleviate my pain.  All it seems to do is dull my senses somewhat.  I feel like I'm a semi functioning depressed little fat lady who has no idea what happened to me.  I can't walk, run or do anything that requires physical movement without feeling like I'm going to fall.  It's very frustrating to me to feel this way, waiting for a good day is becoming dismal.