How I have been feeling lately...

   I don't understand any of this... like why am I getting help and other people have it way worse than me.. I shouldn't be getting help. I'm worthless. I want to cut so bad. I feel so alone... I try to help people but it just seems like I always hurt people and I don't want to hurt anyone else. Is it okay if I just leave? I only have one best friend and I feel like we have grown so far apart that she don't want to be my friend and she's the only one that actually listened to me but she told me to stop being so negative and I wasn't trying to be and now she says "you can talk to me" but I'm so afraid to start talking to her that I might just bring her down again and not mean to. Nobody should care about me. Yeah I care about them but I'm just afraid that I'm gonna hurt them and they don't deserve that...