How I Hate myself
I hate way I am now it’s been three years four months twelve days scene the accident happened and it’s been nothing short of hell for me. It started with the pain, and that got a little better over time but its still there. Then I started to feel sorry for myself, and then I got depression. Now I am restless all of the time just can’t claim down I thought I could have hyperthyroidism got some blood test done last week they came back normal so its not that I was hopping it was that way they could do something for it, but no luck there.
Well one good thing is coming out of this is that I lost 15 unneeded pounds because I started walking more to burn up the energy that I have all of the time.
The is worst at work for, one that is where I lost my leg, two I hate it there because it reminds me of the accident plus I have a hard time keeping myself busy enough to make the day go by fast, all I do is sit behind a computer and enter in numbers so much fun. But it’s a job that I need right now mostly for the health insurance, plus the pay check, with my wife not working it is getting harder to get the ends to meet by the end of the month.
Now my oldest boy has move in with us with his two kids .Two and Four nothing but pure energy. So when I get home all stress out form being at work, and there are so happy to see me and Grand mom is happy that I am home so she gets a break from them. But all I want to do is sit for a little while to be able to unstressed from the day now I can not do that
I just want this to stop I want to go back to the way I was before March 21st 2007 easy going, fun loving, a good father, would be a grate grandfather, not afraid to get my hands dirty. I can learn to live with only having one good sound leg to stand on, but it’s all of the mental thing that I am having trouble with now
Please make this go away for good
Dennis
Well one good thing is coming out of this is that I lost 15 unneeded pounds because I started walking more to burn up the energy that I have all of the time.
The is worst at work for, one that is where I lost my leg, two I hate it there because it reminds me of the accident plus I have a hard time keeping myself busy enough to make the day go by fast, all I do is sit behind a computer and enter in numbers so much fun. But it’s a job that I need right now mostly for the health insurance, plus the pay check, with my wife not working it is getting harder to get the ends to meet by the end of the month.
Now my oldest boy has move in with us with his two kids .Two and Four nothing but pure energy. So when I get home all stress out form being at work, and there are so happy to see me and Grand mom is happy that I am home so she gets a break from them. But all I want to do is sit for a little while to be able to unstressed from the day now I can not do that
I just want this to stop I want to go back to the way I was before March 21st 2007 easy going, fun loving, a good father, would be a grate grandfather, not afraid to get my hands dirty. I can learn to live with only having one good sound leg to stand on, but it’s all of the mental thing that I am having trouble with now
Please make this go away for good
Dennis
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