How I got here

My ptsd is ongoing I'm four years in - it consisted of a divorce domestic violence attempt suicide of my step daughter and a successful suicide of my ex husband. I had to put down 3 dogs in 2 years and am unable to afford living on my own so live with family. I work full time I have some really bad days but tend to hide how I feel around anyone I know. I feel more comfortable online. In my four years I met someone new he wasn't nice. I've been single a while now. Along with ptsd I have high functioning anxiety and major depression which I hide it well from the people that know me. I have a hard time meeting new ppl and come off as snotty but that is truly not my intention- I'm very fearful of meeting new ppl bc of what has happened on my past.