How I feel today

I am having a very rough morning today. I dont feel like being bothered right now. I have crap to do. I need to clean up my hiuse and attempt to be productive. Thats not what I really want to do today. I would really like to just curl up in a hole and just be quiet. My past life choices and tragedies are hunting me today and I cant shake this feeling. Dont know whether I need a hug or something that I can take out my aggression out on. I really need help and have to figure out how to get it.