How everythings falling apart

first, a few days ago my girlfriend was questioning us being together. at the same time my ex is still sending me stuff telling me how much she still loves me. I just broke and stopped talking to my gf and told my ex and everyone here i was about to OD. That was stupid, Danielle (ex) tells my gf and she calls me asking whats wrong and if it was her and i denied it which only pissed her off more because she said i wasnt being "open" and that she had always been, im not the type to open up to anyone but myself though. Then it went back to the "you live too far away: thing and we eventually got through it. Next morning i was awakened to her calling me screaming at me about telling my ex it was her fault. I did exactly say that but got too close and i ended up blocking my ex. she forgave me. Tonight she starts randomly crying and i think shes joking like she always does but shes not and she hangs up on me. i call her back and shes crying about not being able to see me and that shes not ready for a long distance relationship. I get depressed again and dont know what to say but managed to say the wrong thing. I said, it makes me feel like dying. She goes off saying"i thought u were better than that" and " that throws away all the respect i ever had for you" i break down bawling and telling her about how terrible my lifes been etc, she tells me i should never say that and that when i did she wanted to hang up and never speak to me again. I feel worse than ever and just hang up for 20 min then call her back and its more of the same..........were gonna try and figure it out tomorrow i guess