How do you say goodbye to someone that you never met?

I never met you but I loved you. Never got to hear your heart beating. I prayed to God that you will stay, but you left me. I cried myself to sleep a many nights asking God "WHY ME!"...but nothing changed the fact that you were gone. Your father couldn't understand why I couldn't let you go and move on...how could I? You were apart of me! Even though we never met, I loved you anyway. Now I know why God loved me before I was thought of. This type of love, no one can comprehend. I pray that you will ask God to bless me with a child for you to love in spirit.