How do you run from the demons when they're inside you?
You don't. You fight them. Today, I gave in to the demons and drank a six pack (-ish). I lost count. I spent last night out of town with my family and today was my day 7 of sobriety. As soon as I heard from my husband that he was up til 5am drinking, I knew there was beer in the house and couldn't wait to get home. I hate that about me.
Start my day 1 again tomorrow. I was overcome with guilt and self-loathing once I sobered up.
Start my day 1 again tomorrow. I was overcome with guilt and self-loathing once I sobered up.
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Is your husband willing to keep alcohol out of the house for a while?
He has been REALLY good about it, but he knew I would be out of town and figured \"What the hell?\" I don\'t think he took into consideration that he wouldn\'t be drinking a whole case by himself before I got home. :(
Hopefully next time he will get rid of it first now that he knows. You can do this!
Thanks! I know I can. And he does know better. He tried to pull the \"half that beer is Josh\'s\" (our roommate). He knew and I knew that it was BS. Anyway, I\'m feeling better...my second try at Day 1 is successful. And so will be the rest of my days. :)
I know you\'re stronger than you give yourself credit for. If u need support, if u need an ear.... You know I\'m here. Keep your chin up & know that you\'ve faced demons before and kicked their asses.
Snowbunny, you\'re my hero. You told me you don\'t check DS anymore. I\'m honestly shamed that you know this about me. :(