How could this happen?? Shes only 6!

I am a mom of 4 amazing kids. When I had my children I made a promise that I would never let anyone hurt them or atleast try to pervent it to happen.. I failed more ways then one. I moved to the home I am in now back in October of 2018. I became friends with my neighbor and her children, I even started babysitting for her, and took her son in when their power was off, because he had no where to go.. My kids finally had a really good friend.

Well how do I say this that ended very fast sadly............

So let me back up to November of 2018.

My oldest son Christian was outside playing with his friend Michael. Michael told him that this girl he was friends with didn't clean her room that it was always dirty. Christian told Michael "Oh well my cousion is like that and he always has bugs and spiders". At that moment the girls mom walked by she started screaming at Michael's mom and started saying a whole bunch of none sence. The girls mom had came to my door and was telling me all this. I questioned my son and Michael and that is when I found out that Christian said nothing about this girls room.. Well the girls mom went home and told her 13 year old son.. I thought all this way over!! I was totally beyound wrong!!!

Two weeks before Christmas the 13 year old boy went to Michael who is 9 and told him that he is to rape my 6 year old daughter and If he didn't he was going to do bodily harm to him! He kept saying no and didn't want to do it. The 13 year old went up to my daughter while they were playing outside and told her "You will let Michael touch you down their or I will kill. If you do this I will give you $5.00." My daughter never came to me. She always comes to me but she didn't..

I was homeschooling my speical needs son and was finishing up some paper work my twin daughters came home from school and asked me if they can go outside and play. I said yes. I will regrut that word for the rest of my life!! My 6 year old daughter went to Michael's house instead of outside with her twin sister..

Christian went to see if Michael wanted to hang out, when he walked into Michael's room the unthinkable the unspeakable, my daughter was naked in Michael's bed. Christian ran outside and came into the house and told us that Nevaeh was naked..

Now Michael's mom was not home, so my kids was not supposed to be over their. When Christian came out she ran into Michael's mom and tells her that his sister is in Michael's bed naked..

When Christian came and told us she was naked we thought she got undressed outside, so we were a little confused.. I asked my husband to go get her. he went and got her.. What he saw was unblieveable, unthinkable.
Michaels mom was getting her dressed, and looks at my husband and tells him we all need to speak asap!

My husband comes into our house and tells me Jen is on her way over. I was still confused so I started raising my voice at my daughter. Trying to find out why she was naked outside. She is crying and saying "Michael pulled down my pants and underwear"... I froze and I went numb!! All I could was look at my little crying and scared.. I was still confused on what happened but I knew the words she had just said..

Jen came into my house, and I started asking her questions the only answer she could give me is that my duaghter was completely nakes in her sons bed..

We asked my daughter if Michael had touched her and she said yes.. I remember my heart dropped and my angier grew bigger..

I was also so confused because he never took me as a child to do that..

We sent my daughter to her grandmothers house and brought Michael over.

We asked him why was she naked? His response was " She wanted to play doctor so we were playing doctor, and then she said she was cold so I gave her a sheet and the next thing I knowo she is taking off her pants and underwear."

I asked "Why didn't you come tell an adult or your older sister"?

He said " I didn't think about it but I told her to get them on".

He stuck with his story but it made no sence to me my husband or his mom.. So we contiuned to ask questions.

I told him that I have to go to the police and file a report.

He then tell's me that he has been touching my daughter sence the week of Christmas.

I can not explain the feeling I had at the very moment. I can't say what was going through my head, I can't say anything..

The words just kept replaying in my head and my stomach was sick, and my heart had dropped on the floor,,

When I asked why he wouldn't tell me.

While I was getting my daughter dressed to take her to the hospital, Jen took Michael to his threapest, and that is when she found out that following.

The 13 year old threatened him and wanted reveange against Christian..

I went to the hospital, found out my daughter had another UTI plus a yeast infection and she had marks on her from Michael..

As I am watching my 6 year old daughter go through a rape kit I am numb and in shock, and angry at myself because i didn't protect her. She had other UTI's sence then has been happening and her doctor was just going to refer her to a Urologiest. I should have known. She was having night mares, she was peeing herself, her addutted changed. I was raped I knew the signs and I ignored it. What kind of mother does that? What kind of mother doesn't see the red flag? What kind of mom doesn't protect her daughter?

We had the whole investigation, and because he is 9 they aren't doing anything. The 13 year old they are still investagating...

The decetive told me that my daughter will get past this because she is 6 years old. He said that she will need threapy later on in life...

I was like what the heck did you just say? No she need threapy now! She needs to deal with it now not later on, and she is having problems now!! She is peeing her self witch she has never done before, she doesn't hardly sleep because of the nightmares, whitch she has never had before..

I asked for a new decetive and was told there was not another one for this case..

All I do is cry all I do is shut everyone out right now.. I look at my daughter and all I can think is why, how could they do this to my baby..

I am just broken right now. I do not know if this is normal, I do not know if how I feel is justified I just know this is how I feel..

I am just completely broken..