How could he?
How could he just throw away 16 years? of marriageHow could he just throw me away?How could he throw away our life?How could he not know how this would affect me?How could he not care during the affair?How could he not think that what he was doing was wrong?How could he not love me enough to talk to me?How could he make love to another woman?How could he treat me this way?How could he tell me it was my fault?How could he hurt me so badly and so intimately?How could he? How could he? How could he?How could he? How could he? How could he?
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Reading this broke my hear!!. Hang in there I\'ve had all same thoughts & questions that you just wrote down. This is a long road to travel & you will experience alot of ups & downs. I think alot of their problem was that they were not thinking of anyone but themselves & how much longer they could get away with what they wre doing living a double life.
You neeed to allow yourself to go through all the stages of healing & you will feel all sorts of emotions, believe me there have been times I truly thought I was losing my mind.
I will say a prayer for you for peace & healing>
It\'s all about compartmentalizing, our counselor said it is very common for men to have another side that they can totally seperate from us & be alright with it until they are actually confronted with what they have done. Which is exactly what our husbands have done.
You\'re feeling exactly like me, it hurts so bad. It\'s kind of comforting to see that someone else knows how I feel but I hate to see anybody in that much pain. I\'m so sorry. I really hope you\'re having a better day today.
Thank you! I know that I was having several good days and then all of the sudden... BAM! I started wondering how it was so EASY for him! I do feel like I am spiraling out of control over the last 2 days. The only bit of good news is that half of the tests have come back negative. Still awaiting the other half. :-(
I know that I will continue to question things. At least I am not taking responsibility for his guilt and his affair. He tried that and I stopped it.
I will be better soon because I am not this person and I refuse to stay this way! Thanks for your prayers and support!
I\'m glad to hear some of your tests came back negative, hopefully they all will. I remember the wait & those days seemed to go on forever til I had all my results. I unfortunately did not get all clear on my tests, but there is nothing I can do about that now. He never used protection. You would think if he didn\'t use it for himself he would at least have thought about me & how it could forever change our lives. All the best to you on your test results!!