How Can He Still Talk to Me As IF WE have a FUTURE Together, When He's the WAY He IS ?!?!?!

I don't understand Him at all ! But then, I suppose How Can You Understand an Abusive Type of Person when You simply DON'T Think like HE does ?!
But.....
HOW on EARTH can He Talk of " OUR FUTURE TOGETHER " when HE is the WAY HE IS ?!?!
It's like He has NO CLUE as to How MUCH the THINGS HE DOES, AND SAYS SOMETIMES, HURTS ME ! I think He's convinced Himself that I simply FORGET about the TERRIBLE THINGS HE'S DONE TO ME, and I Move On... and STILL LOVE HIM, AND WANT HIM... JUST AS MUCH AS BEFORE ! HAHAHAHAHA !!!!!
Well, He's DEAD WRONG !!!! WRONG... WRONG.. WRONG.. WRONG.. WRONG !!!!!
It suprises Me beyond ANY Words can say how He DOESN'T SEE in My Eyes how I DON'T DESIRE HIM ANYMORE ! Yes, for the SAKE of PEACE I have Told Him that I " LOVE HIM ", but Whatever I still Feel for Him I don't think it's TRUE LOVE !
I think it's MORE Sympathy, and Pity, than Anything.... like the " LOVE " for a Younger Brother that has SCREWED UP HIS LIFE IN A MAJOR WAY !!!!
Romantically I just CAN'T say that I DESIRE Him anymore ! HOW CAN I ???
HOW CAN YOU DESIRE SOMEONE THAT YOU KNOW IS SO CAPABLE... AND ALWAYS SO CLOSE TO DOING YOU HARM IN SOME FASHION ?????!!!!
Even " MOMENTS " in the Bedroom AREN'T SAFE.... since IF I DON'T do EVERYTHING EXACTLY HOW HE WANTS ME TO.... CHANCES ARE VERY VERY HIGH THAT THE RAGING BEAST IN HIM WILL SHOW ITSELF !!!!! ... It has Before, so HOW do I know that it WON'T AGAIN ???? I DON'T.. THAT'S JUST IT... BUT DOES HE UNDERSTAND THIS ????
OH HECK NO !!
It's been making Me feel LITERALLY ' SICK TO MY STOMACH ' LATELY.. EVERY TIME HE TALKS ABOUT ' FUTURE THINGS ' HE WANTS FOR ' US ' ! DAMN HIM !
I WANT HIM TO LEAVE ! ANY OTHER TIME... IN THE PAST.. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN GONE BY NOW... HE WOULD HAVE ALREADY ' LEFT ME ' FOR ANOTHER WOMAN HE MET ONLINE ! BUT FOR SOME ODD REASON NOW HE'S BEING TOO DAMN STUBBORN, AND ACTING AS IF HE REALLY THINKS ' WE ' HAVE A REAL CHANCE TOGETHER !!!!
He doesn't ' GET IT ' that WE DON'T !
HOW CAN WE WHEN HIS ' RAGE ' IS ALWAYS LURKING JUST BENEATH HIS SURFACE... ALWAYS WAITING TO EXPLODE AT A ' MOMENT'S NOTICE ' !!!!
His " MOODS " change SO FAST... IT'S LIKE A LIGHT SWITCH BEING TURNED ON, OR OFF ! AS QUICK AS THAT... HE CAN GO FROM " FRIENDLY & SWEET " TO " DARK - EVIL - AND A RAGING ANIMAL " !!!!
How can I LIVE with Someone like that, AND have the PEACE in My LIFE that I Want, and NEED ?????!!!! The ANSWER IS CLEAR.... I CAN'T !
HE DOESN'T SEE THIS.... BUT HE NEEDS TO WAKE UP TO IT... AND SOON...
BECAUSE LIFE IS PRECIOUS... AND I DON'T WANT TO WASTE MUCH MORE OF MY LIFE WITH SOMEONE LIKE HIM !