How Alone I Really Am
I've been thinking a lot lately. I have come to realize how lonely I really am. I go to Penn State University, the number 1 party school in the country, and yet I haven't gone to one party. I've been going there for three semesters now, and I haven't made one good friend yet. There are some aquaintances, people who I just say hi to, and that's just about it. I live ar home, so I don't have any roommates or anything. A few of my good friends from high school have moved away, what I thought was my best friend doesn't contact me anymore. Sometimes when I get so tired of just sitting at home and feeling lonely , I make up random excuses to go walk around campus or something. Here's the thing, some people like being alone. Well this isn't me, I want to make new friends, I want to go out and have fun, I want to find that special one to spend the rest of my life with. I have the want and will to do these things, but fo some reason or another I can't let these feelings out. I don't know if I need to go to therapy, which I think I probably do. I just don't know how to go about telling my parents without it being awkward or embarassing.
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