Horrible day

I thought I was getting a little better but today at work, a girl was talking about how she & her husband went up north (in Michigan) & how beautiful it was & it just made me so sad because my husband loved going up north.  And after I got out of work, all I've been doing is remembering things & crying.  I just can't stop.  I don't think I have ever cried this much in my whole life.  I keep asking the same question too.......WHY?  Why did God have to take him, why is God making me suffer like this?    I know everyone one of us is probably going through the same things but it just hurts so bad.  I hate my new life.