Hoping time heals

I have been keeping to myself alot more.  I did push myself to get a gym membership in hope's that It will help me feel better.  I'll start out with 3 days a week.  It's funny how after chaos happens, everything slows down and the feelings you were running from just slam back at you.  

Im missing the good Joe or maybe the potential we could have had.  I was listening to a song the other day and had a good memory of him trying to teach me to dance and it made me smile...those are the things that continue to make me sad.  Now I am here back in my bedroom of the house and all I want to do is sleep.  I no longer enjoy work but the things that do on there just bounce off me. Trying not to let that situation get the best of me.  I have lost hope of ever having a relationship.  Roomie is here but he ignores me.  He is lost in his own head so I cant talk to him.  

I'm focusing on getting completely out of debt.  I want to go back to school for something in medical but I also need to have surgery.  2 major decisions I dont have the energy right now to deal with.  I think the best thing for me right now is to just rest and get through these lows I'm having.