Hoping for a Better Day Today
Yesterday was an odd day to say the least. I don't understand when someone - especially someone that " claims " to truly love you - bites your head off at every little thing that they " think " you did wrong ! That was the day I had yesterday with my current boyfriend - former ex-boyfriend. Every little thing I did, or said, he would suddenly be angry about, and either tell me to " shut up ", or he'd start " banging " things around ! First thing was when he was taking a nap yesterday afternoon. While I was out in the living room, and he was in the bedroom sleeping, I " assumed " that he was sound asleep enough for me to call an old friend of mine that I hadn't talked to in a long while. I tried once to reach my friend, and only got their voice mail. After a short while they called me back, and I picked up as quickly as I could - only letting the phone ring maybe twice. I sat in the farthest corner of the living room, at my desktop computer while I was talking to my old friend, since I assumed that sitting in that spot there was no way my boyfriend would hear me from the bedroom - especially since the bedroom door was closed.
While I was talking to my old friend I was online helping them search for a new apartment. We talked for so long that eventually my old cordless phone gave out. So I called my old friend back on my cell phone. But about 5 minutes after I started talking on my cell phone someone called me on my home phone ! So that phone rang for maybe 3 times before I could get to it, and tell the person that I couldn't talk because I was already talking on my cell phone.
So naturally I went back to my conversation - and apartment search - with my old friend on my cell phone. Not too much longer after that my boyfriend comes storming out the bedroom with a very nasty / dirty look on his face, glaring at me, and starts banging around in the kitchen while still throwing very nasty looks at me. I got off my cell phone as quickly as I could, and my boyfriend started complaining to me that I had woke him up because I was TOO LOUD !
He claimed that to him I seemed like I was " shouting " on the phone, and as well as that he said that the phone ringing also woke him up !
He had slept MORE than me the night before anyway, so I don't think he had any room to complain even IF I had woke him up from his nap !
Especially since the night before he had gone to bed first, and when that happens by the time I come to bed he's laying in the " MIDDLE " of the bed where I have NO ROOM to lay down next to him !!!!!
It's MY DAMN BED... but he forgets that fact, and acts as if I have no right to sleep in it when he does that !
So that night - as has happened many OTHER nights - I ended up sleeping in my recliner chair in the living room, with a sheet over me !
While my recliner is one of those " over-stuffed " very nice recliners, STILL it's a chair... NOT a bed ! It's NOT a truly " restful " thing to sleep on ALL night long !
Did my boyfriend even think about this fact ?!
OH HECK NO !!!!!
Because where it comes to sleep he seems to think that HE deserves more sleep than ME ! That's how he acts at least, even though he's never come out and said it.
Today one of my old friends called me while I'm out here in the living room, and my boyfriend had laid back down in bed after getting up one time at around 6 AM.
My old friend called at about 8:30 AM, so I'm hoping that my boyfriend was in a deep enough sleep that he didn't notice the phone ringing, AND especially that he didn't hear me talking on the phone to my old friend ! I tried hard to be considerate, and I was very careful to talk on the phone is a much quieter way than I had yesterday, but I never know with my boyfriend. He could still get up later on, and " claim " that I had been talking on the phone too loud !
Sometimes I think my boyfriend just enjoys biting my head off about every little thing, and putting me down for everything, and anything I say that HE THINKS I said the WRONG WAY !
This feeling makes me wonder....
Did I make the " RIGHT CHOICE " in allowing him to come back
into my LIFE again ? OR was it a BIG MISTAKE ?!?!
Regardless of that.... Right now I'm just hoping for a MUCH BETTER DAY today !
While I was talking to my old friend I was online helping them search for a new apartment. We talked for so long that eventually my old cordless phone gave out. So I called my old friend back on my cell phone. But about 5 minutes after I started talking on my cell phone someone called me on my home phone ! So that phone rang for maybe 3 times before I could get to it, and tell the person that I couldn't talk because I was already talking on my cell phone.
So naturally I went back to my conversation - and apartment search - with my old friend on my cell phone. Not too much longer after that my boyfriend comes storming out the bedroom with a very nasty / dirty look on his face, glaring at me, and starts banging around in the kitchen while still throwing very nasty looks at me. I got off my cell phone as quickly as I could, and my boyfriend started complaining to me that I had woke him up because I was TOO LOUD !
He claimed that to him I seemed like I was " shouting " on the phone, and as well as that he said that the phone ringing also woke him up !
He had slept MORE than me the night before anyway, so I don't think he had any room to complain even IF I had woke him up from his nap !
Especially since the night before he had gone to bed first, and when that happens by the time I come to bed he's laying in the " MIDDLE " of the bed where I have NO ROOM to lay down next to him !!!!!
It's MY DAMN BED... but he forgets that fact, and acts as if I have no right to sleep in it when he does that !
So that night - as has happened many OTHER nights - I ended up sleeping in my recliner chair in the living room, with a sheet over me !
While my recliner is one of those " over-stuffed " very nice recliners, STILL it's a chair... NOT a bed ! It's NOT a truly " restful " thing to sleep on ALL night long !
Did my boyfriend even think about this fact ?!
OH HECK NO !!!!!
Because where it comes to sleep he seems to think that HE deserves more sleep than ME ! That's how he acts at least, even though he's never come out and said it.
Today one of my old friends called me while I'm out here in the living room, and my boyfriend had laid back down in bed after getting up one time at around 6 AM.
My old friend called at about 8:30 AM, so I'm hoping that my boyfriend was in a deep enough sleep that he didn't notice the phone ringing, AND especially that he didn't hear me talking on the phone to my old friend ! I tried hard to be considerate, and I was very careful to talk on the phone is a much quieter way than I had yesterday, but I never know with my boyfriend. He could still get up later on, and " claim " that I had been talking on the phone too loud !
Sometimes I think my boyfriend just enjoys biting my head off about every little thing, and putting me down for everything, and anything I say that HE THINKS I said the WRONG WAY !
This feeling makes me wonder....
Did I make the " RIGHT CHOICE " in allowing him to come back
into my LIFE again ? OR was it a BIG MISTAKE ?!?!
Regardless of that.... Right now I'm just hoping for a MUCH BETTER DAY today !
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