hopes despite failures

I wanted to get on here today and write down some long term goals; really digging deep within myself to find some darn good reasons to overcome binge eating and obsession with fat and food.      I long for the ability to look in the mirror and feel beautiful Have a long life that is not impinged or restricted by poor health Not be ashamed, secretive, or feel out of control Feel in control Do not let my mood be dictated by what I eat or don't eat, Don't let my mood be lifted by sugar high's but by mental strength and wisdom and decent sleeping eating patterns Lose 10kg Have a six pack Feel like I can show my stomach in public, and even more - allow my boyfriend to touch my stomach (which is the part I dislike most about myself) Have a great body for performance (singing and music) and shots for my future career Eat regular meals Keep informed about health related issues and do not fear becomming fat Work out, and eat well. Eat less. Move more. Sounds simple and productive - I want to be ABLE to do that! Fill my places of lonliness and boredom with health and social behaviours, not destructive and self demeaning ones Fall more in love with Jesus and life!