Hopeless but hanging in there

He not been keeping journal up to date. Trying to keep busy or have been sleeping continuely. Yeah depression running amuck but have been hanging in there. Gained weight which is depressing. Still obsessed about my mom's death and try as I can am still need to work on rememberingI am not the center of the universe.  Need to get busy and do my routine of cooking bkf for hubby  make bed etc.