Hope

Well nervous doesn't really cover it.

Yesterday I had a phone call to say I've been invited for interview on Thursday for a 12 hour a week job in Superdrug Redruth.

Could it be more perfect??? A 10 minute walk away, my favourite store to shop in, the staff know me and are really great people and I know most of their products inside out. It's within my permitted working hours of 15 and wouldn't be full days which I can manage much easier.

Of all the jobs I've ever had working in the Bodyshop was my favourite, selling products I believe in and used so this would be even better!!

But then last night the doubt crept in....the internal voices that accompany me everwhere. 

 "You are awkward around people"

 " What it you have a panic attack? "

 "You couldn't cope with a big queue, you'd go bright red and start faltering"

 " In winter with everyone having coughs and colds you'll be constantly sick and let them down "

 "You'll never hear customers, your heading aids pick up background noise"

 "You'll have to use your glasses constantly....what it you forget them??"

 "You forget things all the time....you'll look so stupid"

" Your back will constantly hurt being on you feet and your fibromyalgia won't like it"

 " you'll put yourself in a flare and be know good to anyone"

 And on and on and on and on. But I'm going to give it my all. I'm patient, kind, positive, caring, understanding and a great listener. I'm quirky, fun, great sense of humour and have vast product knowledge. I've got great vision and imagination and can forward think and do a few things at a time. I'm quick, efficient and can concentrate when needed.

So I'm going to take the plunge, I'm me....not my  illnesses and it's time to shine