hoorah

hello journal, its been about a week now and i have to say that not a lot has happened to me. thankfully.........i am now on holiday from work for seven whole days....i am so joyous i could heel click my way around my street, this is the first time off i have had since september and it has been a long time coming i can tell you. I am totally worn out mentally with that place, so much so that i wish that i could just jack it in, but alas bills have to be paid....if only we could all do what we loved and then we would be closer to happiness.......i would have a small rescue centre for animals, birds, reptiles..you name it i would learn about it and care for it. Sometimes i prefer animals to humans, at least there seems to be no agenda on their minds, no backstabbing or be littling.....but hey, maybe thats what they want us to think....lol....Tomorrow i take the girls to the vets and i have to admit that i am anxious about it. Thankfully they are only getting a couple of teeth out, and the anesthetic shouldnt be too strong but i still worry......they are following me about everywhere just now because they havent had anything to eat since 6pm this evening and they are hungry. I just want things to be over quickly so that i can get them home again and fuss over them.My anxiety has been a little up and down this week again.......it hasnt been bad enough to say that i have had an attack but it has been ever present. i have had the pins and needles, flushes, surreal feelings and sharp pains in the chest and head........it sucks