Home as Therapy

This is exactly what the doctor ordered,rest & the people whom I love most around me 4 comfort & strength.I am slowly adjusting 2 the pain patch again,we started at 10 mcg this time,that's why so much nausea & vomiting.I read some more on this patch,you have 2 be careful of other people,it says not 2 let it touch your skin if you are not using it.Wash the area immediately & seek medical attention right away.Scary stuff,but I wish it would have more pain relieving effect,it merely takes the edge off of the worst.I must be thankful 4 what it is doing,my grandfather had nothing 2 use in his entire life 4 any kind of pain relief,it is after all an invisible illness.Living his life would have been alot more challenging than what I am enduring,at least I have the family physician,the pain clinic is supposed 2 hook me up & all the drugs & things I have access 2.I did not know the man personally,I grew up in Canada,they resided in Denmark.The time that I did spend with him,2 summer vacations over here for 3 weeks 2 visit us,they were my dad's parents.He never walked completely upright,& the 2nd time they came he was definitely less mobile than 10 years previous.I wish I had a diagnosis of his condition as well as mine 4 comparison purposes,maybe I could get some kind of peace of mind that he did not suffer 4 all those years 4 nothing,it must have been very difficult 4 him 2 see a purpose 2 it all,in endless,agonizing pain as he must have been.I have grown both spiritually & psychologically in the last 6 months,most positives seen in my ability 2 deal with the sheer amount of pain & still keep a straight face.This is what I mean by growing,as I can only go in 1 direction,forward!The Good Lord willing,I will continue 2 spread my positive message 2 any 1 willing 2 listen.I feel that keeping this positive attitude is less stressful than any other way,anger seems 2 take alot more out of me than laughing!spinelessinalbertaJustKeepSmilin':)JesusSaves! P2