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You act like I never do anything. You treat me like anything I do is wrong. Yet, if I say something about it you gaslight me like you don't criticize me ever. You want to act like you do everything, but neither house is clean. Children barely get bathed unless I do it. Everything that gets done is because rather than bitching that you don't do anything, I just do a little extra when I do things. I wash bottles, and then I wash a couple extra dishes.
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I feel dread at going home to my husband. The only thing that makes it better is that my children are there.
I feel like the gaslighting is just getting worse. I tell him that I feel like I am walking on eggshells when it comes to my other home, and he tells me that I shouldn't feel like that because he makes the choice to call. He makes me feel bad because he made the choice to call and then just discredits my feelings about the whole situation. He made the choice to let someone else live in my house...He acts like he gets to just decide everything and it is bothering me.
I wish I had more things that I could do for home at work. I hate that I just sit at work and don't have anything to do, but when I get home I am packed with shit to do. I feel like I could bury myself in all the things that I need to do... Laundry, cleaning every room, either packing or unpacking (not really sure whether we are packing or unpacking from one house to another, but that is another update) trying to figure out what to keep, trying to start a garden, cleaning up the yard. And then work there is just nothing to do.